Personal Possessions (34 page)

“He says it taste
disgusting. He tells me it’s not clean.”

What The Fuck did I just
hear? The good vibes left me as I heard those words leave Elle’s
mouth. I couldn’t believe what I had just heard. Simultaneously, I
wiped the smile off my mouth, and grabbed Elle by her legs and
pulled her down to me, spreading her open as I dove in for my first
taste. I laid my tongue against her and was back in my heaven. I
could feel myself shaking which meant she could feel it too, I
didn’t want her to be scared of me but I was done with Bear holding
this kind of power over her. I needed her to realize that me and
her…we were a good thing.

“
I’m gonna make you come
with my mouth and drink you up, you understand me, Elleny? This is
beauty, this pussy right here. This is my heaven, this is my
sanctuary; my refuge. That mother fucker doesn’t even deserve to
lay next to this treasure. He will never, in his entire fucking
piece of shit life be worthy enough to put his fingers against this
pussy.”

I put the tip of my tongue
up against her clit and tickled her.

“Do you feel that, baby?
Do you feel how good that feels….my tongue licking up every bit of
you? That’s exactly how you make me feel. My mouth is against the
most perfect jewel that will ever be found….and it’s all mine. The
wealthiest of wealthiest men will never find a gem as perfect as
yours. It’s so beautiful; pink and bulging, just for me Elle….every
bit of it is mine.”

As I looked up, I could
see Elle shaking and whimpering quietly; she’s crying. Yet, she
wasn’t telling me to stop, so I continued.

I saw her hands grasp the
sheets beside her and I know that she is close. I begin lapping and
licking against her clit faster. Suddenly, I see her hips start to
roll with my rhythm, she’s getting ready to come.

“That’s it Elle, work that
beautiful pussy against me, and come all over my face. You look so
gorgeous when you ride my tongue.”

I heard her moans growing
closer so I took my fingers and plunged them into her. That did it.
I felt her tighten around me as she began screaming through
it.

“Give it to me babe, I
want it all. Everything he’s taken from you. I’m giving you
back.”

Feeling Elle’s hands
grasped around my arms, she pulled me up her body. I positioned
myself at her entrance, but yet…I hesitated. I felt her hand come
between us as she urged my cock into her.

“
Oh fuck Elle, I’m trying
to take it slow, tell me if I hurt you.”

“
Do it TJ, I need to feel
you move inside of me.” She whispered in my ear.

I sunk into her slowly,
for her sake…and mine. She felt fucking amazing. I closed my eyes
and just enjoyed everything that was Elle.

“
Do you feel me, Elle? Do
you feel my cock deep in you? This is how deep you’re in me. You
are so deep, Elle, I can’t find a way to get you out.”

I couldn’t move. I felt as
though I was dreaming…this couldn’t be happening. I was finally
where I needed to be; with Elle…inside Elle. Also, she was so
tight, I didn’t want to embarrass myself.

Elle closed her eyes, I
wasn’t going to allow this. I needed her with me right here, right
now. I wanted her here…with me, in this moment.

“
I want your eyes,
Elle.”

At that moment, I could
feel Elle’s arms wrap around me tight…so tight, I thought I might
pull back because she was startled, but then I felt her lips
against my ear.

“
Tell me you need me,
TJ.”

The question that I asked
Elle was now being brought back up in my face. I wasn’t going to
lie, she wanted to know…I was going to tell her. I laid a kiss on
her lips as I thrust in and out of her. How do I tell her she’s my
obsession without terrorizing her?

“
Elleny, I need you so
much baby. I can’t function without you. For seventeen years I’ve
been sleeping then you were brought back to me and now I’m finally
awake.”

The hole in my chest that
had been empty for so long was not only healed but was beginning to
look like a soul again.

I could feel myself
building closer, I didn’t want to come. That would mean that I
wouldn’t be connected with her, so I was taking my time.

“
Tell me what you want,
TJ… describe it.”

I don’t know if she knew
what she was asking for. Was she going to be able to handle what I
had to say?

“I want you beside me for
the rest of my life, when I wake up, when I go to sleep. I want you
to give me babies and I want to be able to share with you this love
that is overflowing inside me.”

I could feel Elle begin to
tense up, I didn’t know if it was from my response or from her
getting ready to explode. I would take it as being the
latter.

“
Fuck baby you’re
squeezing me so fucking tight, I’m gonna come.”

I sped up my thrusts, she
met my pace as she pushed me deeper inside. I felt her tighten as
at the same time she breathed my name.

“TJ…”

I plunged in three more
times and had an orgasm myself; the biggest orgasm I could
remember. I stayed inside of her for several moments. I loved the
feeling of being connected to Elle, I couldn’t get any closer to
her then as I was at this very moment.

“
Can I tell you something
and please…don’t get mad or upset.”

Elle’s voice brought me
back to reality, an actuality of where she had just confessed to me
the cruelest, most unimaginable fucking concerns anyone could ever
hear. I didn’t know if I could take much more. I pushed myself up
to look her in the eyes. I braced for the worst.

“Yes, but hurry before I
change my mind.”

I could tell that she was
nervous to admit what she was about to admit. Either she was afraid
of my reaction, considering what she had just seen me do to the
bathroom, I can’t say that I would’ve blamed her, or she was afraid
of what this meant if she admitted it to me. I knew all the bad
now, something she wasn’t used to. I didn’t have to coax her or
even ask her, she was opening up to me on her own; I was on cloud
fucking nine.

“
When Bear was pushing
himself in my mouth, he kept asking me if I liked the taste of what
real love was, but it was the most disgusting taste I’ve ever
tasted in my life. Love shouldn’t be disgusting and nasty…should
it?”

I know my face had to
speak what my brain was telling me not to say. I never wanted to
kill a man with my own two hands ever in my life as I much as I
wanted to kill Willie Jackson. I didn’t care if I spent the rest of
my years behind bars, it would be so fucking worth it to see the
desperation in his eyes…the same look that I am now looking into
from beneath me. The look that I never thought I’d see coming from
eyes that held the world in them. I wanted to relish in that moment
when he would expel the last breath he would ever take; that’s how
bad I wanted to kill this man.

I ended up wiping that
thought from my head and replacing it with Elle and me…happy. No
worries, no fears. She would live carefree with no doubts that she
was loved. Never would she ever have to question what true love was
after today, she was going to know what it was…and what it tasted
like.

I didn’t say a word, I
eased out of her and lowered my head back down to where I found my
sanity; my lucidity. I dove in between her legs, tasting the
mixture of her essence and mine mixed together. I would never get
enough of us. This was the taste of what true love tasted like.
Beautiful, sweet as though it was the sweetest grape on the vine.
We mixed beautifully together as did out bodies, intertwined
together, there was nothing that could separate us. We were strong
and resilient

Bendable…not
breakable.

I quickly lifted my head
and met her eyes with mine.

“I want your
mouth.”

She gave me her mouth, no
questions asked. I felt her silkiness mesh with mine, she licked
what was the both of us out of my mouth. She couldn’t resist…there
was no way she could’ve. The taste was too addictive.

I broke the
kiss.

“Do you taste that Elleny?
That’s what real love tastes like. Pure, uncorrupted, virtuous,
UNTAINTED. That’s what straight- from-your-fucking-soul-love tastes
like. You got me?”

A tear slid down her
cheek, she was done with those. The only time she would ever cry
again were tears of happiness that I would bestow upon her. I
swiped my thumb down her cheek then licked the tear away. My
promise to her that I would be there to take away the pain…to be
her healer.

I needed her to hear what
I had to say, my words were what was going to happen. My solemn
oath that she would be who she once was. I would work until my
dying day to put that spark back into her eye and as I would lay
upon my death bed and if I caught just one glimmer of it, I had
completed what I was meant to do in my lifetime.

“Let me put you back
together. Babe, you’re not broken your just damaged. Remember…
bendable….not breakable.”

Elle turned her head from
me. She was hiding, from what…I had no idea. I knew all that she
had to hide, there was nothing more, at least I hoped
not.

“TJ, there’s so much that
you don’t know. Things that are shattering.”

I wasn’t going to push…she
would tell me in her own time. Nothing could be as bad as what I
heard today and besides, I wasn’t going anywhere. We would find a
way to work through whatever it was. I was not going to let her get
lost from me again.

“Then when the time is
right we’ll get through it…..Let me heal you, Elle.”

Elle’s eyes came back
around to look at me, and I could’ve swore I saw…nah, no way it
must’ve been a reflection. She smiled a little smile and laid a
gentle kiss on my lips and said one small word.

“OK.”

Chapter 17

We finally made it to
Elle’s doctor’s appointment and I didn’t care how long it took, she
was having a complete physical done. I wanted x-rays taken, blood
drawn…if we hadn’t slept together, I probably would have wanted a
female physical done as well. I wanted to know anything and
everything about her injuries.

“
Miss Barker?”

Elle’s face turned to me
and she was wearing a funny look as though she didn’t know whether
to laugh or to blush. There was no way in hell, that she would be
known as “Jackson” he didn’t even deserve to have her claim his
last name. She was going to go by Barker.

We walked into the triage
room where the nurse took Elle’s vitals. I looked around while she
asked Elle the typical questions.

“So, Miss Barker, what are
we seeing you for today?”

“I just need a
S-“

“She’s going to need a
physical. I’d like Dr. Callahan to check her out
thoroughly.”

I immediately cut her off,
I didn’t mean to be rude, but I wanted to make sure that they were
made aware of what we were here for today.

“
What on…“

“I’m sorry Mr. McHale, the
appointment was scheduled hours ago and we still have three other
patients to see, maybe you can resch…“

I didn’t know this nurse,
and I was sure she would remember me from this point on. I was
paying a good amount of money to this office, I even made donations
to the local hospital in this doctor’s name, he was going to do
what the fuck I asked him to or I would more than likely find
another doctor to support.

“Listen to me…is it
Jackie?”

“Yes sir, my name is
Jackie.”

“Well Jackie, I bet if you
go and have a discussion with Dr. Callahan, he will not have a
problem with us sitting in the exam room while he finishes off with
the other patients and then returns to our room. He will be
compensated very well for his time.”

She looked between Elle
and I, slowly nodded her head and placed us in an exam room without
saying a word.

“That was totally
unnecessary, I don’t need an exam! I just want to have him take
some blood and be done with this.”

I knew as soon as she
left, Elle was going to lay into me. She was not someone who wanted
to make waves…that was always my job. Well, she was going to have
to get used to it again.

“Elle, you are covered in
bruises. I want to make sure that you don’t have anything
broken.”

She reached down and
picked up a magazine opening it up and flipping through the pages
as though she was looking for one page in particular.

“
It wouldn’t have been the
first time and it sure as hell won’t be the last.”

She was so casual when she
spoke of what she went through. Unfortunately, I wasn’t as laid
back as she was. It didn’t take me by a split second to get up off
that stool and over to Elle, ripping that magazine from her
hands.

“
It sure as fuck is the
last time!”

I was fucking pissed. This
was no laughing matter and how dare she treat it as such. I don’t
know if that was some type of automatic defense that she had set up
for herself but I wasn’t buying it and she sure as shit wasn’t
playing games with me.