Authors: Justine Elvira
Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Genre Fiction, #Coming of Age, #Romance, #Contemporary, #New Adult & College
“Oh I think you
know. I’m twenty-three and I have needs just like everyone else. My hand and I
are on good terms.”
He was laughing
now and not even trying to hide it.
“Is it really that
funny? I’m sorry but it was the only way for me to get off since I never let
anyone touch me.” I laughed a little now too, “I thought I was pretty good at
it but one touch from you and I realized what I have been missing.”
Sebastian stopped
laughing and looked up at me again. His eyes were filled with lust and I loved
that I made him feel that way.
Maybe I shouldn’t
have said that. I do have a tendency to say way too much in front of him.
I usually have a filter but it seems to fall out when he is around.
“I shouldn’t have
just said that. Its true, but I shouldn’t have said it.” I hope this helps ease
the tension that has filled the room.
Any hopes I had of
that happening were thrown out the window.
“Just your hand? I
mean do you only use your hand? What happens when your urge is stronger? Do you
use a vibrator?”
Wow, that was
straight to the point. No one could say he was shy about sex. Well he wants to
know so I guess I should tell him.
“No vibrator. I
had thought about it but the idea of something being inside me again, well,
lets just say it’s not a pleasant thought. I’m okay with that though. I mean it
didn’t feel that great the first time so why let something or someone do it
again.” I let a laugh to show him that it was okay. I was okay.
“Honey…” That was
the third time he has called me Honey. I was beginning to like that term
of endearment. “It didn’t feel good because you were forced to do it. You
didn’t consent, there was no foreplay, and most importantly… you were a virgin,
it always hurts the first time. If you mix that with the fact that there was no
foreplay and you weren’t wet, well it must have been agonizing. You were forced
Mia and you survived and now you need to know what it feels like to have sex. You
need to know that it can be pleasurable.”
“And let me guess,
you can do that for me?” I was trying to bring a little humor to the situation.
His lip curled up
slightly to form a smile but after a few moments fell flat. His face was
serious again before he spoke. ”No Mia, as much as I want you, your obviously
not ready for that form of intimacy. I shouldn’t have pushed you.” He stood up
from the ground in front of me and reached for my hands. His hands were warms,
smooth; his touch felt incredible.
He gently pulled
me up so we were standing face to face. He then brought our joined hands
between our bodies until our mingled hands were lying on his chest.
“I want to get to
know you Mia. I was serious before and I am even more serious now. I want us to
be friends…. I’m going to show you what a great friend I can be.”
He brought my
hands up to his mouth and gently kissed them with his soft lips. “I’m glad you
felt comfortable telling me about your past. I know that must have been hard
for you. You can always trust me, I will spend the rest of my life proving that
to you.”
Sebastian let go
of my hands and leaned in towards my body. “It’s late I should go. Don’t
make plans for tomorrow night, okay?”
I nodded and spoke
quietly, “okay.”
“Great! I’m in the
mood for an action flick. I haven’t seen the latest
Mission Impossible
movie yet so I’m leaning towards that.” He said as he laid a soft kiss on my
forehead and turned towards my bedroom door. He looked back at me one more time
before walking out my door and leaving for the night.
My mind was
replaying the conversation we just had. I can’t believe I was so open with him;
I was never open with anyone. My own mother didn’t know most of the things I
told Sebastian.
I wanted to trust
that he would keep my secrets. Scratch that, I knew I could trust that he would
keep my secrets. I just needed to trust him with my heart because after tonight
I was sure of one thing, Sebastian Price was slowly getting ahold of my heart
and soon he would have the power to destroy it.
******
It was the middle
of October and I was sitting anxiously on the stool in Sebastian’s Kitchen. I
had on a pair of short jean shorts, a blue ribbed tank top, and flip-flops on
my feet. I had straightened my hair this morning and loosely curled the ends of
it to give my hair a little bounce. I had a navy canvas baseball cap on my head
and my sunglasses were hanging from my tank top.
Sebastian was
taking me out on the water today. He had a lot of toys, as he liked to call
them, which he played on in the ocean. Today he was teaching me how to ride a
Sea-doo. I was super excited because I had never been out on the ocean. Sure
I’ve put my feet in, I’ve even gone in waste deep, but usually I stayed on the
beach. This would be a new adventure for me.
Ever since that
first night watching movies in my room Sebastian has been amazing. He stayed
true to his word and he has been an amazing friend to me. He also hasn’t tried
anything with me. The only physical contact we have had has been a lot of
hugging. He hasn’t even pecked me on the cheek.
I should be happy
about the fact that Sebastian is respecting my wishes and not crossing any
boundaries but I’m not. I want him to touch me, I want him to kiss me, who am I
kidding; I want him to do more than kiss me! Unfortunately for me, Sebastian
has been the perfect gentleman.
We have hung out
every night over the past six weeks. At first I was worried he was doing this
because he felt bad for me but I quickly saw that he was enjoying his time with
me as much as I was enjoying my time with him. The truth was, Sebastian was
fun. He knew how to have a good time, he was funny, incredibly smart, and he
doesn’t take himself too seriously.
He is also
extremely competitive. I found this out the first time he took me bowling. We
were having fun on our lane but he wasn’t getting any competition from me. I
sucked at bowling and after one game I was ready to throw in the towel.
Sebastian wanted to keep playing so he turned to a group of guys in the lane
next to us and asked if he could join their team. He bowled two more
games with them while I sat and watched. He was adorable to watch.
We’ve played
several board games at his estate and he usually wins. On the rare occasion he
doesn’t win, he is a sore loser. These are the times I like to rub it in that I
won because he is so funny to watch lose.
He even makes
cooking a competition. We have both tried our hands in cooking for the other
person. Sebastian is a fabulous cook and I am not. He always eats what I make
him and never complains but it is obvious who is better in the kitchen.
Competitiveness
aside, I found out what an amazing person Sebastian is and I have completely
fallen for him.
That is just
another reason why I was practically bouncing in my seat waiting for him to
come meet me in the kitchen. He was finishing up a business call in his office
and then we would be on our way. I didn’t know much about Sea-doo’s but when
Sebastian showed me a picture of one and then told me we would ride together, I
was giddy with joy. I loved anything that gave me an excuse to touch him.
I would start with
my hands on his chest, and then I would slowly move them to the waste of his
trunk before teasing his-
Just when my
thoughts were getting away from me Sebastian strode into the kitchen. Holy
crap, he looked good. He was wearing a white short-sleeve polo; khaki shorts,
White gym shoes, and a pair of sunglasses were resting on his head. He could
convince me to do anything looking the way he looked.
His eyes roamed up
and down my body taking me in. When a smile appeared on his face I was inwardly
happy. A part of me was pleased he liked the way I looked.
“How was your
phone call?”
“Boring as usual.
I’m glad I dealt with it because now we won’t have any interruptions when we’re
out on the water.” He reached his hand out to me to help me from the stool,
“You ready to go?”
I held his hand
and stood up with a smile, “absolutely, I can’t wait!”
“I love to see you
smile. Your enthusiasm brightens my mood after the phone call I just had.” He
released my hand but I wasn’t ready to lose contact with him just yet.
I raised my arm
and place my hand on his shoulder while looking directly into his eyes. “Let’s
go old man. I want to get out on the water before you make us come back for an
early bird dinner.” I squeezed his shoulder before letting go and walking
towards the Front doors that led to the driveway.
Sebastian quickly
caught up and slapped my ass. “Are you ever going to stop calling me old man?
I’m starting to regret telling you my age. Plus, most people consider
thirty-one to be young.”
I laughed, “I’m
just giving you a hard time old man. You still have a little time before your
eligible for the senior citizens discount.”
He was pouting
now, actually pouting!
“Well if you’re
going to be mean I guess I won’t let you use my discount,” Sebastian declared
with a slight smile reappearing to his face.
“Sebastian, you
have nothing to worry about. Your age is growing on me,” I said smiling
back at him.
We walked over to
his Jeep that was already on the driveway waiting for us. He opened the
passenger door and waited for me to get it. Then he jogged over to the driver’s
side to get in the car. Once he was seated I started in on him again.
“A jeep? What are
you trying to look like your part of the normal folk?”
He rolled his eyes
and stuck the key in the ignition. “Mia could you stop busting my balls for a
few seconds. I happen to love my jeep. When I drive to the beach, this is what
I drive.”
The car started,
he put the car in drive, and we were off to the beach. Sebastian had the stereo
on low during the drive and we were both pretty quiet listening to the sounds
of his
Mumford & Sons
cd playing on the stereo. It was a comfortable
silence. I just enjoyed being in Sebastian’s presence.
He slowly moved
his right hand from the steering wheel in search for my hand. He intertwined
our fingers and placed them on my lap. His eyes never left the road but I could
see a smile on his face. He was content.
I, well I was
freaking out inside. His hand in mine felt so amazing, like home, but this was
out of character for him. We have never held hands. While my insides were doing
flips, the outside of me looked happy. Actually, I was happy. This was the
happiest I have been in a long time and I know that has everything to do with
the God like man next to me.
I haven’t wanted
to get my hopes up that anything could happen between the two of us but I am
starting to wonder if today is a game changer. Sebastian’s mood seems
different. I can’t put my finger on what exactly it is but his mood is
definitely different.
He has been on his
best behavior since that night in my room. I’ve overheard a couple of the girls
complaining about Sebastian rejecting their advances. I asked Rachel about it
and she said he hasn’t slept with anyone since I walked in on him and her in
Sebastian’s office. I guess some of the girls are pretty upset but they haven’t
said anything to me yet.
I was lost in my
thoughts when I heard Sebastian clear his throat. I turned my head towards him
and he spoke, “So would you be terribly upset if I canceled the Sea-doo trip
today?”
I was confused.
Why would he cancel it if we were on our way there right now? “Aren’t we headed
there now? Why would you cancel it?”
“We are headed
there Mia, but I have another idea and I really would like to do this instead.
We can do the Sea-doo trip another day, I promise.”
How could I say
no. He looked so adorable asking me if it was okay and I really wanted him to
enjoy himself today. “Sure that would be fine. Where are we going?” I wanted to
prepare myself incase it was something crazy, like skydiving.
“It’s a surprise.”
He looked over at me and as if he could read my thought, “It’s nothing scary.
It will actually be relaxing. We can stop in the next town and pick up
something to bring with us for lunch.”
So we were
bringing food to eat with us at our new destination? Interesting. I replied
quickly with an “okay” and relaxed back into my seat to enjoy the ride, still
holding Sebastian’s hand.
After we stopped
in a small town outside Miami for some sub sandwiches, we were back on the
road. Sebastian was no longer holding my hand; his free hand was playing the
drums on the steering wheel. He was humming along to the music and I was
content watching him.
We pulled off the
main highway a little while later and headed into a town called Hollywood
Beach. It was a tourist attraction but it was a lot less crowded than Miami. We
followed along the beach until Sebastian pulled up to a stretch of beach a
little less crowded.
It was beautiful.
I’ve never told
Sebastian how I feel about the ocean. Him bringing me here just seems right and
makes me think he knows me better than I do sometimes. I might be over thinking
it, but I wanted to believe that he knew me.
Sebastian put the car
in park, turned off the ignition and jumped out of his jeep. I started to
unbuckle my seatbelt in order to get out as well. Before I could open the
door Sebastian was standing next to me, door open, holding his hand out for me
to grab and climb out. He was such a gentleman. I gladly obliged and climbed
out of the jeep.
“So the beach is
your surprise? You know we could have gone to the beach in Miami.” While I was
glad that I got to spend so much time with him, I couldn’t help but think what
a waste of gas it was to drive this way for a beach.