Authors: Justine Elvira
Tags: #Literature & Fiction, #Genre Fiction, #Coming of Age, #Romance, #Contemporary, #New Adult & College
I adjust my body
to face him completely and I lift one of my legs over his hips so that I am
straddling him. I raise my hands to grip the sides of his face while I look
into his eyes.
All I see in his
beautiful blue eyes is the worry he has for me.
“I wasn’t
dreaming. I don’t know why I’m covered in sweat, or why I was screaming in my
sleep,” I said with such determination. I wasn’t sure if I was trying to
convince him or me. “I would remember if I was dreaming.”
I caressed his
cheek and leaned in to give him a quick kiss on the lips. “I’m sorry I scared
you. Go back to sleep.”
I went to move off
of him but his arms moved around me to hold me in place. He gently adjusted my
body so that my body was over his intimately. I could feel his erection through
the thin material of his boxers and my panties.
“Are you sure your
okay? I’m here you know, if you want to talk. I’ll listen to anything you want
to tell me,” He said sounding hopeful. I knew he wanted me to confide in him
but I wasn’t there yet. With my freak out yesterday I wasn’t sure if I would
ever be there.
I spoke softly to
him, “I know and that is very sweet. You were there for me last night. I needed
you and you were there. That’s what I need. That’s all I need.”
I leaned down to
give him another kiss on the lips. His hands tightened around my waste as he
kissed me back. What was meant to be a brief peck quickly got out of control.
His hands moved up
my body and caressed the sides of my breasts. His tongue met mine as we
devoured each other. Our need for each other was evident. My hands moved
urgently over his body. I wasted no time in moving one of my hands inside the
front of his boxers.
His cock was hard
and ready for me. I held his erection as I started to stroke him up and down.
My hips were moving up and down with each movement. I released my mouth from
his and moved my lips to his neck. I moved my free hand to the back of his neck
to hold him in place while I sucked his neck and continued to stroke his
erection.
His hands
continued their movement over my body. When Sebastian went to take my panties
off I stopped him.
I spoke panting
into his neck, “We… can’t,” I barely got those words out before his hand was in
my panties. His fingers stroke in between my folds before his index finger
plunged into my core. “Ugh,” I moaned out. His hand felt incredible. He felt
incredible.
I continued my
movement over his erection as I started to ride his finger. Just as I was
starting to feel the familiar build up approaching, Sebastian added another
finger inside me. I let out another moan as I crashed my lips onto his.
I couldn’t get
enough of him. My body needed him. It was like some unexplained force had taken
over me and it needed Sebastian to survive.
My teeth clamped
onto his lips as I was on the brink of orgasm. I wanted to wait for him but I
didn’t know how to stop it. I was… almost…. there.
My back arched as
my breasts smashed into is chest. I still had my bra on but the feeling of my
hard nipples against his chest was my undoing. I came riding his fingers
moaning out Sebastian’s name. It felt incredible.
Sebastian was
still panting as my hand moved faster over his cock. “Lift your hips,” He
breathed out to me.
I lifted my hips
as he slipped his hand out from me. He moves his fingers to his mouth and
sucked my juices off of them.
I was entranced by
this action. It was completely and totally the most erotic thing I had ever
experienced.
“Fucking
delicious. You taste fantastic.”
Sebastian had no
qualms in saying this to me. He looked triumphant even. His hips started
thrusting into my hand and I knew he was getting close.
I don’t know if it
was the trust I was slowly having in him or the scene he just displayed in
front of me but I had the urge to do something for him. Something I had never
done before.
My hand continued
its movement as I slowly moved my hips down his body. I placed kisses down his
chest. My lips hovered over his lower abdomen, licking and kissing him right
above his package.
I then moved my
lips over the top of his erection. I licked the head of his cock as I continued
to pump him up and down.
“Oh… Fuck!” He
yelled as I opened my mouth and took him inside. I started to suck and bob my
head over him while my hand continued to move on him. It only took a couple
seconds and he was ready to come.
His hand went to
move my head but I stayed firm on his cock. I loved the feeling of him
stretching inside me. I felt something hit my tongue, then the back of my
throat as Sebastian came inside my mouth.
I took all of him.
Wanting to taste every last drop. Surprisingly, he tasted fantastic. I was
beginning to understand why he liked licking me off his fingers.
When I was sure he
was finished I lifted myself off him and licked my lips. The look on his face
made me melt inside. He was looking at me with such adoration.
I crawled back up
his body and sprawled across his chest. We lay this way for a while, neither of
us speaking. We were just enjoying being in each other’s company.
After what had to
have been hours but seemed like seconds, I looked over to the clock on his
nightstand. It was a little after six in the morning. I would have to get ready
to start work soon.
As if sensing
where my thoughts were, Sebastian broke the silence in the room. “Stay in bed
with me today. We can talk about everything and I can explain to you about my
marriage. We can just lay here and enjoy being together.”
I wanted to. The
idea of staying in bed with him made my stomach flutter. There was nothing more
I wanted to do in the world then stay with him, but I had a job to do. I
couldn’t allow him to give me special treatment. It wasn’t fair and the girls
would hate me.
“As great as that
sounds, I need to work. We can spend the day together this weekend,” I said to
him, pouting slightly. I nuzzled my face into his chest a little more.
His hands started
to caress my back as he spoke, ”Just today. I just need today. You have sick
days and personal days…. We can just say you are using one of those. Plus, I
have a proposition for you. I’ve been thinking about this the past few days and
I really want to discuss it with you today. What do you say? Will you stay with
me today?”
How could I say no
to that? It was all to easy staying with him since I never wanted to leave in
the first place.
I lifted my head
slightly to look into his eyes as I said, “Okay.”
I laid my head back
down on his chest and just enjoyed being in this moment. I was in Sebastian’s
safe arms. Nothing could harm me in his arms. I know I have only known him for
two months but I couldn’t imagine not being around him. He was my safety net.
It may be unhealthy, and I am sure a psychologist would love to examine me, but
I needed Sebastian.
I felt like he was
detrimental in my survival.
*****
We lay in
Sebastian’s bed most of the morning. I snuggled into him and let myself doze on
and off in his arms. He did the same. It was the most comfortable rest I have
had in awhile.
He did need to
take a few of the calls that came through on his cell. He apologized every time
he had to answer and he kept the calls as short as possible. I didn’t mind. I
liked hearing him being so authoritative on the phone.
He sounded sexy.
A woman I didn’t
recognize brought us up brunch around noon. It was a nice spread of bagels,
scrambled eggs, bacon, sausage, pancakes, French toast, and fruit. I don’t know
how many people they thought were in here because there was no way we were
going to be able to eat all of this.
When I asked
Sebastian about all the food he explained that he wasn’t sure what I liked to
eat so he had them bring up a selection of different foods.
That was sweet.
I decided on some
pancakes and sausage while Sebastian ate the scrambled eggs and fruit. I was
cradled in between his legs while we ate. It was easy for me to maneuver but I
wasn’t so sure it was that easy for him to eat, but he didn’t complain.
When we were
finished eating Sebastian had Celeste, a member of the kitchen staff, come up
and collect our dirty dishes.
We laid back down
facing each other, him on his right side and me on my left. Our faces were only
a few inches apart.
“I want to tell
you about Darcy,” Sebastian whispered to me as he played with a strand of my
hair between his fingers.
I was hesitant as
I replied, “Okay.” I wasn’t sure if I was going to like the story he was about
to tell me. I also wasn’t sure if I was going to look like the dirty whore who
slept with a married man.
I guess I was
about to find out.
“Before I tell you
I need you to know something,” he said nervously. “I… The way I feel about you,
I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I’ve been in many relationships,
some serious and some not, but I’ve never had any kind of intense feelings for
any of the women. It was always just something to satisfy me, sexually. Also, I
was lonely and any kind of companionship was better than nothing.
“When I met you,
everything changed. I knew it the second I laid my eyes on you. You came into
my office looking so innocent and scared and I instantly felt the need to
protect you. It was instinct.”
He paused briefly
looking at me anxiously. He looked like he was afraid to continue. I lifted my
hand and placed it on his chest, directly over his heart. I wanted to give him
some kind of encouragement to continue.
“When you left my
office I couldn’t get you out of my head. I knew that no matter what the
background check said, I was going to hire you. I couldn’t imagine not seeing
you again. Then… then I got the report on you from my private investigator. Out
of all the horrible scenarios I could imagine being on that report, I never
would have imagined reading what I read about you. My heart broke for you even
though I just met you.
“I immediately got
on the phone with Nancy and told her to call you and let you know you were
hired. When Nancy mentioned you moving in on the weekend my protective instinct
took over. I couldn’t imagine you living on your own for a few more days. I
needed you safe, on my estate. I told Nancy you had to move in that night.
“She thought I was
insane but I didn’t care. I needed to know you were safe. I filled my day in
with Vanessa and her body. It was like I had to prove to myself that you
weren’t going to change anything. That I was still going to be able to fuck my
staff… and you, some girl I just met, were not going to change me. Then you
moved in and our brief interactions sparked something inside me.”
He took a deep
breath and continued to play with my hair as he spoke, “Then that first night
at dinner, when we connected, I felt it throughout my body. It was like I was
alive for the first time. My body felt like it was on fire. Your touch did that
to me but then…. Then you turned me down and left me.
“I was so angry.
Angry with you and angry that I let you get to me. I called Rachel to fill the
need I had for you and the next thing I know, you’re in my office watching me
fuck her.
“The look on your
face, you were devastated. I could see it and I felt sick. Sick that I did that
to you and sick that the minute you turned me down I ran to Rachel. When you
ran out of my office I made Rachel leave. I haven’t touched another woman
since.”
I brought my lips
up to his and kissed him gently on the lips. I wanted to comfort him. I wanted
to soothe him from any pain I had caused him.
He moved away from
my lips and continued, “I thought I blew any chance I had with you. Then we
decided to be friends and that night, in your bedroom, was the hottest thing I
have ever experienced. You trusted me. I knew then that I might actually have a
chance with you… and I wanted a chance with you… so badly.
“So I told you we
could be friends and over the next several weeks I got to get to know you and I
loved everything about you. You are a breath of fresh air for me. Everything
I’ve been missing. When we made love for the first time, I knew what a big deal
that was for you. I was so happy you trusted me to let us experience that
together. It was in that moment I knew I loved you.”
Oh. My. God.
He loved me.
Sebastian just said he loved me. Maybe he didn’t realize what he said. Maybe he
was already regretting saying it. Maybe-
Sebastian lifted
my chin so that I was looking directly into his eyes. His were crystal clear
while mine were blurry with unshed tears waiting to pour down.
“I love you Mia. I
have never loved another women. You are it for me.” He was so sincere and with
his words I melted
My brain and mouth
lost any filter it had before. I was no longer trying to protect my heart.
“I love you
too. God, I love you so much. I know we haven’t known each other for long but I
think I loved you the moment I met you. Your brought me back to life. Over the
past several months I’ve been dead inside and you saved me. I love you.”
I kissed him
passionately this time. Saying with my mouth and body what I just said with
words. We were getting pretty hot and heavy when Sebastian pulled away.
He was breathing
heavily and his eyes were filled with lust but he was determined. “We need to
talk first Mia. I still haven’t told you about Darcy.”
Well that was like
a bucket of ice water being thrown on my libido. The last thing I wanted to
talk about after our confessions of love was his marriage.
He gently stroked
my cheek as my eyes moved towards him.
“Darcy and I have
known each other our whole lives. Our families are close and our father’s have
been business partners for over thirty years. Darcy and I never got along
growing up but our parents were convinced we would fall in love and get
married. When I was a junior in high school I was so sick of hearing about the
two of us that I started sleeping with any woman that would have me. It was
surprisingly easy.