A Mother's Love (25 page)

              I made sure I had Quincy a whole new wardrobe and I made sure his room was nice. He appreciated and loved it. His own kids had pretty much quit speaking to him. Their mother told them he cared more about a bitch than them since he had given his freedom up. That was fucked up, everybody deserved justice, especially my Mom.

              I missed my Mom, not really missed her because I was young when she died and I barely remember her but I miss not knowing Not knowing what it felt like to have a Mother’s love, not knowing how it felt to see her every day, hear her talk, eat her food. Not knowing what it felt like to get a whooping or when it was time to do homework not having that help from her. Just not knowing a real woman’s touch, I only had Daphne and Violet but they couldn’t relate to a Mother’s love.

              We were the first to arrive at the cemetery. When we arrived Quincy placed the flowers he had bought Mom and he started crying. I mean really crying I had never seen a grown man cry so hard. He was on his knees in mud with his head down bawling like a baby. He loved her dearly. He cried so hard it caused me to cry. I felt a hand on my back and turned to see Daphne she had tears in her eyes.

              She looked just like our Mother and before I knew it we embraced and I cried harder. I needed this, I needed to let this out. Why was she taken from us, why was we left on our own? Daphne was crying but she wasn’t bawling like me. She was strong, she was strong for me. I got myself together and let her go.

              “I needed that sis.” I said wiping my tears.

              “We all do sometimes, even trees sway.”She looked down at Quincy who was still crying. “Who is that?”

              “Pops get up,” I said touching his shoulder. “Calm down Daphne is here.” Quincy consoled himself a little and got up and turned towards Daphne.

              “Q!” she said hugging him. They embraced and cried. I saw Jr. and Violet pulling up. I made sure Jr. went to go get her because it was only a sibling thing no significant others.

              “Okay yall calm down her come Jr. and Violet.” I went to help Violet out the car. She was walking well now she only used a cane but I wanted to help.

              “Hey, Mar Mar who Daphne over there hugging on Mike gone be mad.” She joked. We walked up to them and Jr. recognized Q right away.

              “Pops what’s up man!” he said looking at me then at Q they hugged. “What the fuck Shamar you been keeping this a secret when did you get out?”

              “Yesterday,” Q said he had calmed down. He looked at Violet and he looked unsure. I guess so since he had killed her father. Violet looked at me.

              “Who is this Mar?” she said since she knew it wasn’t our real father Shane. But I think she knew deep down who it was but she wanted to make sure.

              “It’s me baby girl Quincy.” He stepped forward. I guess he wanted to face her like a man.

              “Get the fuck outta here,” she smiled then held out here arms to be hugged. “I thought I would never see you again.” She started to cry. “Damn I finally got one of my parents now.” That was a relief. We visited Mama and gave her some flowers. And it was like we were a family again.

              “Man I wish Mama could see us all grown up.” I said.

              I see you baby Mama sees you and Mama loves you all I thought as tears fell from my eyes. Just then the sky opened and I felt warm. Not cold like before, I felt warm. I was resting my soul could finally rest Quincy was there to look after our kids just like he was suppose to I was at rest. I closed my eyes and let my soul float through those pearly gates. Yes, Father God I was finally home. Thank you Jesus.