Authors: Rainbow Rowell
Eleanor couldn’t think of a place
safe enough for Park’s photo, so
she zipped it into the pocket of her
school bag. After she’d looked at
it again and again and again.
CHAPTER 44
Eleanor
Wednesday night wasn’t the
worst.
Park had taekwando, but
Eleanor still had Park, the memory
of him, everywhere. (Everywhere
he’d touched her felt untouchable.
Everywhere he’d touched her felt
safe.) Richie had to work late that
night, so her mom made Totino’s
Party Pizzas for dinner. They must
have been on sale at Food 4 Less,
because the freezer was stuffed
with them.
They
watched
Highway to
Heaven
while they ate. Then
Eleanor sat with Maisie on the
living room floor, and they tried
to teach Mouse ‘Down Down
Baby.’
It was hopeless. He could
either remember the words or the
clapping, but never both at once.
It drove Maisie crazy. ‘Start
again,’ she kept saying.
‘Come help us, Ben,’ Eleanor
said, ‘it’s easier with four.’
Down, down, baby, down by
the roller coaster
.
Sweet, sweet, baby, I’ll never
let you go
.
Shimmy, shimmy, cocoa puff,
shimmy
. . .
‘Oh my God, Mouse. Right hand
first –
right
first. Okay. Start again
…’
Down, down, baby
. . .
‘Mouse!’
CHAPTER 45
Park
‘I don’t feel like cooking dinner,’
his mom said.
It was just the three of them,
Park, his mom and Eleanor, sitting
on the couch, watching
Wheel of
Fortune
. His dad had gone turkey
hunting and wouldn’t be home
until late, and Josh was staying
over at a friend’s.
‘I could heat up a pizza,’ Park
said.
‘Or we could go get pizza,’ his
mom said.
Park looked at Eleanor; he
didn’t know what the rules were,
as far as going out. Her eyes got
big, and she shrugged.
‘Yeah,’ Park said, grinning,
‘let’s go get pizza.’
‘I feel too lazy,’ his mom said.
‘You and Eleanor go get pizza.’
‘You want me to drive?’
‘Sure,’ his mom said. ‘You too
scared?’
Jeez, now his mom was calling
him a pussy.
‘No, I can drive. Do you want
Pizza Hut? Should we call it in
first?’
‘You go where you want,’ his
mom said. ‘I’m not even very
hungry. You go. Eat dinner. See
movie or something.’
He and Eleanor both stared at
her.
‘Are you sure?’ he asked.
‘Yeah, go,’ she said, ‘I never
get house to myself.’
She was home all day, every
day by herself, but Park decided
not to mention it. He and Eleanor
stood up cautiously from the
couch. Like they were expecting
his mom to say ‘April fools!’ two
weeks late.
‘Keys on hook,’ she said.
‘Hand me my purse.’ She gave
him twenty dollars from her
wallet, and then ten more.
‘Thanks …’ Park said, still
hesitant. ‘I guess we’ll go now?’
‘Not yet …’ His mom looked
at Eleanor’s clothes and frowned.
‘Eleanor can’t go out like that.’ If
they wore the same size, she’d be
forcing
Eleanor
into
a
stonewashed miniskirt about now.
‘But I’ve looked like this all
day,’ Eleanor said. She was
wearing army surplus pants and a
short-sleeved men’s shirt over
some kind of long-sleeved purple
T-shirt. Park thought she looked
cool. (He actually thought she
looked adorable, but that word
would make Eleanor gag.) ‘Just let
me fix your hair,’ his mom said.
She pulled Eleanor into the
bathroom and started pulling
bobby pins out of her hair.
‘Down, down, down,’ she said.
Park
leaned
against
the
doorway and watched.
‘It’s
weird
that
you’re
watching this,’ Eleanor said.
‘It’s nothing I haven’t seen
before,’ he said.
‘Park probably help me do
your hair on wedding day,’ his
mom said.
He and Eleanor both looked at
the floor. ‘I’ll wait for you in the
living room,’ he said.
In a few minutes, she was
ready. Her hair looked perfect,
every curl shiny and on purpose,
and her lips were a glossy pink.
He could tell from here that she’d
taste like strawberries.
‘Okay,’ his mom said, ‘go.
Have fun.’
They walked out to the
Impala, and Park opened the door
for Eleanor. ‘I can open my own
door,’ she said. And by the time
he got to his side, she’d leaned
over the seat and pushed his door
open.
‘Where should we go?’ he
asked.
‘I don’t know,’ she said,
sinking down in her seat. ‘Can we
just get out of the neighborhood? I
feel like I’m sneaking across the
Berlin Wall.’
‘Oh,’ he said, ‘yeah.’ He
started the car and looked over at
her. ‘Get down more. Your hair
glows in the dark.’
‘Thanks.’
‘You know what I mean.’
He started driving west. There
was nothing east of the Flats but
the river.
‘Don’t drive by the Rail,’ she
said.
‘The what?’
‘Turn right here.’
‘Okay …’
He looked down at her – she
was crouching on the floor – and
laughed.
‘It’s not funny.’
‘It’s kind of funny,’ he said.
‘You’re on the floor, and I’m only
getting to drive because my dad’s
out of town.’
‘Your dad wants you to drive.
All you have to do is learn how to
drive a stick.’
‘I already know how to drive a
stick.’
‘Then what’s the problem?’
‘The problem is me,’ he said,
feeling irritated. ‘Hey, we’re out of
the neighborhood, can you sit up
now?’
‘I’ll sit up when we get to
Twenty-fourth Street.’
She sat up at 24th Street, but
they didn’t talk again until 42nd.
‘Where are we going?’ she
asked.
‘I don’t know,’ he said. He
really didn’t. He knew how to get
to school and how to get
downtown, and that was it.
‘Where do you want to go?’
‘I don’t know,’ she said.
Eleanor
She wanted to go to Inspiration
Point. Which, as far as she knew,
only existed on
Happy Days
.
And she didn’t want to say to
Park, ‘Hey, where do you kids go
when you want to fog up the
windows?’ Because, what would
he think of her? And what if he
had an answer?
Eleanor was trying really hard
not be overawed by Park’s driving
skills, but every time he changed
lanes or checked the rearview
mirror,
she
caught
herself
swooning. He might as well be
lighting a cigarette or ordering a
Scotch on the rocks, it made him
seem so much older …
Eleanor
didn’t
have
her
learner’s permit. Her mom wasn’t
even allowed to drive, so getting
Eleanor’s license wasn’t a priority.
‘Do
we
have
to
go
somewhere?’ she asked.
‘Well,
we
have
to
go
some
where …’ Park said.
‘But do we have to do
something?’
‘What do you mean?’
‘Can’t we just go somewhere
and be together? Where do people
go to be together? I don’t even
care if we get out of the car …’
He looked over at her, then
looked back, nervously, at the
road. ‘Okay,’ he said. ‘Yeah.
Yeah, just let me …’
He pulled into a parking lot
and turned around.
‘We’ll go downtown.’
Park
They did get out of the car. Once
they
were
downtown,
Park
wanted to show Eleanor Drastic
Plastic and the Antiquarium and
all the other record stores. She’d
never even been to the Old
Market, which was practically the
only place
to
go in Omaha.
There were a bunch of other
kids hanging out downtown, a lot
of them looking much weirder
than Eleanor. Park took her to his
favorite pizza place. And then his
favorite ice cream place. And his
third favorite comic book shop.
He kept pretending that they
were on a real date, and then he’d
remember that they were.
Eleanor
Park held her hand the whole
night, like he was her boyfriend.
Because he is your boyfriend,
dummy, she kept telling herself.
Much
to the dismay of the girl
working at the record store. She
had eight holes in each ear, and
she clearly thought Park was a
whole closet full of cat’s pajamas.
The girl looked at Eleanor like,
are you kidding me?
And Eleanor
looked back like,
I know, right?
They walked down every
street of the Market area, and then
across the street, into a park.
Eleanor didn’t even know all this
existed.
She
hadn’t
realized
Omaha could be such a nice place
to live. (In her head, this was
Park’s doing, too. The world
rebuilt itself into a better place
around him.)
Park
They ended up at Central Park.
Omaha’s version. Eleanor had
never been here before either, and
even though it was wet and
muddy and still kind of cold, she
kept saying how nice it was.
‘Oh, look,’ she said. ‘Swans.’
‘I think those are geese,’ he
said.
‘Well, they’re the best-looking
geese I’ve ever seen.’
They sat on one of the park
benches and watched the geese
settle in on the bank of the
manmade lake. Park put his arm
around Eleanor and felt her lean
against him.
‘Let’s keep doing this,’ he
said.
‘What?’
‘Going out.’
‘Okay,’ she said. She didn’t
say anything about him learning
how
to
drive
a
manual
transmission.
Which
he
appreciated.
‘We should go to prom,’ he
said.
‘What?’ She lifted up her
head.
‘Prom. You know, prom.’
‘I know what it is, but why
would we go there?’
Because he wanted to see
Eleanor in a pretty dress. Because
he wanted to help his mom do her
hair.
‘Because it’s prom,’ he said.
‘And it’s lame,’ she said.
‘How do you know?’
‘Because the theme is “I Want
to Know What Love Is.”
‘That’s not such a bad song,’
he said.
‘Are
you
drunk,
it’s
Foreigner.’
Park shrugged and pulled one
of her curls straight. ‘I know that
prom is lame,’ he said. ‘But it’s
not something you can go back
and do. You only get one chance.’
‘Actually,
you
get
three
chances …’
‘Okay, will you go to prom
with me next year?’
She started laughing. ‘Yeah,’
she said, ‘sure. We can go next
year. That will give my mouse and
bird friends plenty of time to
make me a dress. Totally. Yes.
Let’s go to prom.’
‘You think it’s never going to
happen,’ he said. ‘You’ll see. I’m
not going anywhere.’
‘Not until you learn how to
drive a stick.’
She was relentless.
Eleanor
Prom. Right. That was going to
happen.
The amount of chicanery it
would take to slip prom past her
mother … it boggled the mind.
Though now that Park had
suggested it, Eleanor could almost
see it working. She could tell her
mom that she was going to prom
with Tina. (Good old Tina.) And
she could get ready at Park’s