Forget Me Not (22 page)

“
When do you want me to
come over?”

“
Oh. Are you sure you want
to? I can make up an excuse.”

“
Do you not want me to
come over? Are you ashamed of me, princess?”

“
No, it’s not that. It’s
just that my family is… I mean, we’re…”

“
Normal. Not a
dysfunctional mess of a dead mother and a killer
father.”

“
I didn’t mean it like
that. I’m sorry, Jack. It wasn’t what I meant.”

“
I know. But it’s
true.”

“
It really isn’t that. But
I mean, I know you. They don’t know you.”

“
So do you want me to come
visit?”

I think it over. My parents are going
to be shocked when they see him. With Derek, it was easy. They
already knew him for starters and Derek is the perfect guy to bring
home to one’s parents. He’s cute and athletic and friendly and
mothers especially fall for him immediately. I’ve seen it not only
with my mom, but basically with every adult woman in town as well.
Derek’s charming. Jack, on the other hand, is the kind of guy that
parents worry about – although he’s everything I want. I just don’t
know how to make my parents see what I see in him. I don’t want
their first impression of him to be that he’s some sort of
rebellious phase I’m experiencing. I want them to see Jack, not a
stereotype.

“
I do. But I just want
them to get to know you,” I reply.

“
All right. Sure. Just
tell me when. It scares the hell out of me, but if you want me to
come over, just say when.”

“
After the holidays.” I
definitely don’t feel like trying to handle the holidays, Derek, my
family, and Jack all at once. And something tells me that Jack
doesn’t celebrate Christmas like my family does. Besides, it will
mean more time to prepare them.

“
Yeah. The fucking
holidays.” His voice is sad when he says it, but I just can’t make
that leap yet. I feel shameful that I can’t, but there are certain
steps that I still can’t take. I think it’s okay, though; he
understands and someday I will be ready for it. Right now, though,
my mind is elsewhere.

“
Also… there’s one more
thing.”

He looks up at me and I decide just to
go for it. I get close to him and run my hand along his chest. I
can’t believe how badly I want him and the idea of waiting until we
come back in January is unbearable. We only have a few more days
before break and I am more than ready for this.

“
I’ve been more than
patient,” I say. “And you’ve been sweet and wonderful as a
boyfriend. But I think there are certain things that have been
neglected for way too long.”

“
But we
agreed-”

“
Maybe, but Jack… there is
no way I can wait until after break. I need you.” I’ve spent every
night with Jack, but there has been nothing between us besides
kissing. We sleep together fully clothed, although when he’s
spooning me in bed, I can tell he’s fighting his own desire as
well. I don’t know if it’s worse that we already have slept
together or if that makes it easier. In some ways, I know it will
happen again, but in other ways, it’s so much worse, because I know
what I’m missing. And man, I am missing it.

He looks at me and, as I move my hand
down to his cock, I can tell just how much effort he has put into
being honorable, as he calls it. His body jerks toward me. “Oh,
Lily. I don’t want you to think-”

I kiss him, cutting him off, and then
pull away, dragging him up from the chair by his belt loops. “I
don’t think anything except that you need to take that enormous
cock out and fuck me like I know you can.”

He doesn’t hesitate, his body and my
insistence working in unison. “Okay, princess. You asked for it.”
He tears my shirt off and lifts me onto his bed. I’m so happy to
have his hands all over me. I have craved his touch and I hurry to
help him take off my pants. He kneels down in front of me and
buries his head in my cunt. He teases my clit with his tongue and
I’m wet immediately. I want him so badly it’s crazy. I don’t how
I’ve lasted this long without losing it. His tongue is incredible
and I already forgot my name. Jack looks up from between my legs
and smiles.

“
I’m gonna make my
girlfriend come,” he says.

“
Oh God, yes. Yes, you
are,” I say and let him get to it. After he brings me to orgasm, he
moves onto the bed and slowly runs his hands along my body, but
still he doesn’t undress. I want him, but he’s focused on me
instead. It’s awesome and thrilling and frustrating and painful all
at once. His fingers move in lazy circles around my clit while he
kisses my breasts. I moan softly and he slips his fingers deep into
me, keeping his thumb on my clit to make sure the sensations don’t
stop. I don’t think I can wait much longer.

I reach for him. “Jack, I need you to
fuck me like you used to,” I beg.

“
Are you sure? I don’t
want to ruin us.” I can feel his anxiety and I know what he’s
worrying about, but sex with him isn’t anything but further
intimacy. I have gotten to know him so well and he has been nothing
but kind. I trust him completely.

“
Nothing can ruin us. But
you need to ruin me and you need to do it now.” I unzip his jeans
and Jack knows he’s lost the fight. Soon, I have him free and he
pulls me on top of him so I can ride him. As I slide down along his
shaft, burying his cock inside of my pussy for the first time since
we officially began a relationship, it sends shivers through me.
His eyes are wide open and he smiles. I link my hands with his and
smile back at him.

“
Hey,
boyfriend.”

“
Princess, I fucking love
you,” he moans.

“
I know,” I say and I
begin my slow up and down ride on his cock. When I fucked him
before, even though I felt some stirring of feelings for him, it
was nothing like this. Now, with my boyfriend below me, a boyfriend
who is nothing like what I thought I wanted but who has turned out
to be all that and more, I feel so satisfied. He pushes his hips
toward me and we move together, our bodies and minds connected now.
I push down on his hands and press my body against his, tightening
my cunt around him. He groans loudly; the sound makes me wild and I
let go, feeling the first waves of orgasm sweep over me.

“
Lily,” Jack repeats and
each time he says it, a ripple of pleasure tears through
me.

I bring my lips to his and run my
tongue along his bottom lip, both of us shaking as we rise and fall
in ecstasy. He breaks free from my grasp and clutches me against
him tightly, thrusting harder until I can’t wait anymore and the
orgasm annihilates me. I fall against him, satisfied, and I feel
his throbbing cock push deeper until he comes as well.

“
I love you,” we say at
the same time, and it’s perfect. Although we are two different
people, together we are stronger and better than we are
alone.

****

I know I’m going to miss Jack while
we’re apart for break, but it’s not with the same desperation that
I felt when I was away from Derek. I don’t feel the same need to
fight to salvage anything; he instills confidence in me. Still, on
Saturday, after I’ve packed, I only have a few hours before Jon
comes to pick me up and I go to Jack’s room, wanting to say
goodbye. I knock on his door and it swings open. Alana’s sitting on
the edge of his desk, her hair wrapped up in a messy bun. I’m
relieved that I feel no jealousy. She looks stunning, but when Jack
sees me in the doorway, I know that he sees only me.

“
Hey, Lily,” she says.
“Jack was just talking about you.”

“
Was he?”

“
I’m helping him pick out
your Christmas present. You’re gonna love it.”

“
We’re doing gifts?” I
ask.

“
Well, it’s just something
small. And I suppose it’ll be a post-Christmas gift,” he
says.

“
So, what is
it?”

Alana laughs. “Presents are supposed
to be surprises.”

A blush reaches up from my neck to my
cheeks. “I liked my birthday present. Is it that kind of
surprise?”

Jack spits out the soda he’s drinking.
“Christ, Lily.”

I smile. “What? Just because we’re in
a committed relationship doesn’t make Alana any less hot. Tell me
you don’t think so.”

She smiles back at me, but shakes her
head. “I wouldn’t mind having another go with you, Lily, but sadly,
I’m taken again.”

“
Really?”

“
Dave’s home on leave. For
the holidays. After talking to you, I got to thinking about
relationships, about first loves, and about moving on. We Skyped a
few times and we’re gonna give it a try. I think I’m ready now and
I think he is, too.”

“
Congratulations.” I’m
happy for her, although I have to admit I’m a little disappointed
that we can’t mess around again. She was amazing. Jack’s been
faithful, but that one night still burns in my memory. I feel like
I wouldn’t want to share him with anyone, unless we were together.
I’m definitely up for doing something together, though. I like that
I don’t feel guilty for thinking that when I’m with Jack. He
wouldn’t be offended or shocked at the idea.

“
Listen, I’ll let you guys
have some privacy. Jack, when are you heading back?”

“
Probably tonight,” he
replies.

“
Cool. Lily, I want you to
meet Dave. Come up and visit over break, okay?”

“
I’m planning on it. As
much as possible.”

She leaves and Jack shuts the door. He
kisses me deeply and I fall into him. I love nothing more than
having his lips against mine. The sex is amazing, his touch is
amazing, and just being with him is amazing. However, nothing is
like kissing him. It’s such a simple act, but there is so much
trust in it and he gives so much of himself in his kisses. He pulls
out of the kiss and smiles at me. “I didn’t realize how much you
liked that present, you know. I think I’m a little
jealous.”

I press myself against him. “Nothing
to be jealous of. I wouldn’t want anything if you weren’t a part of
it.”

“
You’re so damn hot, Lily.
You could make a guy crazy.”

“
Mmm. Like this?” I rub my
hand over the growing bulge in his pants and he closes his eyes,
already hungry for me.

“
You’re leaving soon?” I
don’t know how he manages a coherent thought, but he does. I rub
faster.

“
I am. But I wanted to say
goodbye. In private.”

“
Yes, please. What did you
have in mind?”

I move to the drawer and find the ball
gag and handcuffs, handing them to Jack. His eyes gleam wickedly.
There may not be many chances to have sex over break and I want
something to remember. I undress slowly for him, watching his eyes
run over every inch of my body. When I’m naked, he stands and
pushes me back onto the bed, handcuffing my hands over my head. I
want to give in to him completely. Once he fits the gag into place,
he strips out of his clothes and I take him in. He’s beautiful and
he moves over to me, anxious and excited at the same time. I know
he struggles with being forceful, now that I’m his girlfriend. He
feels an obligation to be nice, but I want him to know that I have
no issue with him being naughty. I trust him and I want to be under
his control. I nod and spread my legs for him, so he can slip
between them. His eyes meet mine and he must read my desire to
submit to him, because he lifts my legs and buries himself deep
inside of me.

I cry out against the rubber and Jack
starts fucking me hard. I dig my knees into his sides, encouraging
him to push even harder. Thrusting my hips up to meet him, I come
as he loses himself in me.

“
Do you like it like this,
princess? Do you like it when I’m rough?”

I nod and respond by pushing myself
harder against him. He digs his fingers into my arms and I come
again, at his mercy and loving every second of it. After he
finishes, he uncuffs me, but I’m not done. I want so much more of
him. I take out the gag and flip over on to my side.

“
Fuck me again,” I
plead.

“
Like this?”

“
Like this.”

He spoons me and positions himself
between my legs. I turn slightly back toward him so he can
penetrate me. It takes him no time at all to get hard again and he
pushes against the wet, swollen folds. He slides all the way in and
the angle is perfect. I rock slowly against him and his hands
travel along my back and over my hip. Suddenly, Jack reaches his
fingers down to my ass. He tentatively places one against my
asshole and I let out a load moan.

“
Yes. Oh, please, yes” I
beg. He pushes his finger inside my ass as he slips his cock deeper
into my pussy. It’s fucking incredible and I can’t believe it. The
spasms that come next go through every inch of me and Jack teases
my ass while he fucks me. He has all the power. He’s inside of me
in two places and I can’t fight it. He kisses along my shoulder and
arms. My body melts each time his lips brush my skin.

“
Lily,” he whispers. My
nerves are shot and I orgasm with his finger still playing with my
asshole. “Come for me, baby.”