Authors: Cathy Kelly
It’d been at least a week since she’d done any serious laundry and clumps of dirty clothes lay around the floor like dead bodies. Sighing, Cara rushed around, picking up
items, examining them to see how crumpled or dirty they
were. When she’d amassed a few possible outfits, she
stuffed them into her old rucksack along with a couple of
clean things - which meant things she never wore and
therefore didn’t like - from her wardrobe. Adding the bag
of Christmas presents she’d already wrapped, she closed
the rucksack and was ready to leave in ten minutes. Just
time for a quick shower.
Cara winced at the sight of herself in the bathroom
mirror. Her hair clung limply to her face, which was still a
hungover shade of grey; her eyes were dead with exhaustion
and she was getting a nice big spot on her forehead.
She showered, ducking to avoid Phoebe’s tights and a
new pink broderie anglaise bra dangling from the washing
line. Phoebe must be having a drink with yer man, Cara
decided with a grin. Otherwise she’d have packed up all
her frillies for her holidays.
Out of the shower, she dragged her combats back on
along with a clean white T-shirt, ran a brush through her
unruly hair and squirted herself with the remains of
Phoebe’s deodorant as hers was packed. She was ready. Not
exactly party material, but she’d do. Evie would have a fit
when she saw her, Cara realised as she hoisted the rucksack
on to her back and prepared to leave the flat.
Her sister would no doubt be perfectly turned out in
some pristine outfit: hair shining, shoes shining and halo
shining.
Well, Dad wouldn’t care what she looked like, Cara
thought with relief. He was happy to see her, no matter
what she wore. Pity Evie couldn’t get the message. She’d
learn soon enough. Rosie wasn’t much of a fan of sedate
blazers, long skirts and loafers either.
Bags in hand, Cara pulled open the front door and only
then noticed the envelopes on the mat. She picked them
up: electricity hill and a Christmas card for herself and
Phoebe from Evie and Rosie Cute Christmas teddies
grinned up at her, and Cara smiled. Evie was funny: she
always sent a card to Cara’s flat. It was one of her
idiosyncrasies.
‘Looking forward to a lovely Christmas, Cara, and I hope
we’ll see you, Phoebe, for the New Year. Love, Evie and Rosie.’
Cara stuck the card on the kitchen table along with the
note she’d scrawled to Phoebe. Poor Evie, she was trying
her best. Cara resolved to sort it all out over the next few
days. It was crazy to squabble with your sister, pointless
family feuds started that way. They’d have a proper discussion
and Cara would explain that while she understood
Evie only wanted the best for her, Cara was a grown up
now, not a motherless kid.
Feeling better, she slammed the front door, already
looking forward to a few peaceful days at home. She could
picture the living room: the fire lit, logs crackling and the
dogs, Jessie and Gooch, sprawled out on the big red rug in
front of it, as close as they could possibly get without
getting burned; Dad smiling as he cobbled his special
herby scrambled eggs together; Rosie creating havoc with
the local young lads, eyeing them up on her constant trips
to the shop; Evie fussing over the turkey, the pudding, etc,
etc.
There was no place like home. It was going to be a good Christmas, she was sure of it.
CHAPTER FOUR
It was late afternoon when Evie parked the car outside the
small house in Ballymoreen.
Thank God we’re here,’ groaned Rosie, opening her
door and stretching long jeans-clad legs out.
Massaging her tired neck with one hand, Evie peered
through the fogged-up car window at her father’s house.
Like most of the houses in the village, it was postcard
pretty: a stone facade with two gently curving mullioned
windows to either side of a door framed with a tenacious
evergreen creeper.
Unusually, there were no lights shining through the tiny
diamond panes. The sky was growing darker by the minute
but the porch light wasn’t on. The place seemed deserted.
Evie followed Rosie up the path, feeling a prickle of
unease at the strange stillness. There was no frenzied
barking from Gooch and Jessie at the sound of their
footsteps, even when Evie turned her key in the lock.
‘Something must have happened,’ she said anxiously,
reluctant to push the door open now she’d unlocked it.
She clutched her coat around her, shivering from nerves
and cold. ‘He’s had an accident. Otherwise he’d be
here …’ She paused. It was so silent, it was almost spooky.
Her father knew they were coming; he was always there to
greet them, especially at Christmas.
‘Don’t be daft, Mum.’ Rosie shoved past her and gave the
door a resounding push. ‘The dogs would massacre any
burglars stupid enough to break in, and anyway the neighbours
would know in a shot if there was anything wrong with
Grandpops and they’d be out giving us chapter and verse.
You know what this place is like,’ she added sarcastically.
‘Breathe too loudly and you’re in the papers.’
Evie followed her daughter’s tail figure into the dark
house, half-expecting to see overturned furniture and the
results of a struggle. But when Rosie switched on the light
in the small sitting room, everything was in its place, from
the faded old brocade sofa with its covering of dog hairs to
the nest of tables where her father kept his pipe paraphernalia.
The polished copper fire guard sat in the middle of
the fireplace with its open brick work and the small card
table was in its usual place in the corner, silver photograph
frames arranged as they always were with faded pictures of
Evie’s parents on their wedding day forty years ago.
‘See?’ Rosie marched past her back to the car and
started dragging their luggage from the boot. ‘Nothing’s
wrong, Mum. You’re such a worrier.’
Still wondering where her father was, Evie followed
Rosie. It was so unlike him not to be there, she thought as
she carried in some of the parcels. They were a bit early,
she knew, but it wasn’t as if Dad had anywhere else to go
on Christmas Eve, did he? He was dying to see them, he’d
said so on the phone.
They’d just finished emptying the car when the rain
started, torrential rain that bounced off the flagstones on
the path to the front door and hammered against the
windows mercilessly.
‘Dad’ll be soaked if he’s brought the dogs out for a
walk,’ Evie fretted, peering through the dark green curtains
at the downpour.
Rosie looked up from where she was lighting the fire.
She’d hoped her mother might disappear off to the kitchen
to make tea, so she could sneak a crafty cigarette. She
reckoned the smell of the fire would disguise the scent of
her fag. If she had to spend four whole days without
smoking, she’d go insane.
‘Mum,’ she said in exasperation. ‘He’s a grownup, you
know. How does he manage when we’re not here to worry
about him?’
‘You’re right,’ sighed Evie. Her father did manage
perfectly well without her. But it was one thing not
worrying when she hadn’t a clue what he was up to; it
was another entirely when he was unaccountably missing.
Stop being such a worry wart, she told herself angrily, and
rubbed her eyes. She was tired after the drive down; tired,
hungry and a little miserable. The thought of all the
beautiful food she’d brought was making her ravenous but
she’d promised herself she wouldn’t overindulge during
the holidays.
One lapse could ruin her cellulite-busting plan, although
those sausage rolls she’d got looked particularly gorgeous,
all flaky pastry and tempting sausage meat. But what was
the point of killing herself dieting? Simon wouldn’t notice
if the night before was anything to go by. He’d hardly be
aware if she had her entire body remodelled, she thought
despondently.
She’d spent the car journey thinking about the party and
how Simon had abandoned her for two solid hours by
leaving her talking to poor Hilda Maguire. Evie had been
so looking forward to the evening. It wasn’t as if she had
such a hectic social life that she was going to parties every
night of the week. She practically never went out.
That much-looked forward to evening had been the highlight
of her week. What a waste going to the hairdresser’s.
The more she turned it over in her mind, the more
depressed she got. Imagine letting her go home alone
because he was afraid to offend his bosses by leaving early.
He couldn’t love her to do that. Love meant wanting to be
together passionately, frantically. Especially at Christmas.
She remembered how Simon had broken the news to
her that he wouldn’t be going with her to Ballymoreen
They’d been trailing around the shops looking for gifts for
each other that cost less than 40 pounds each - Simon’s idea
because they were saving for the wedding.
‘Next year we’ll be together, Evie. But I’m not going to
be able to go with you this time. I can’t let Mother down.
We’ve gone to Uncle Harry’s for Christmas every year
since I was a child. It’s a tradition. Mother would feel so
alone among all the relatives without me.’
Seeing how downcast his fiancee looked at this bombshell,
he had asked her to stay at Uncle Harry’s too. A bit
of a halfhearted invitation, Evie had felt. Still, she
couldn’t have left Dad and Cara on their own, so she’d
refused.
If last night had been a wonderful party, it would have
kept her going over the entire Simon-less holiday. But it
had been a complete let down. Which was a bit how Evie
felt. Let down. Maybe she’d just have one sausage roll. She
felt like it. Yes, and think what your rear end will look like
after a few days of eating like a horse, her conscience
pointed out.
‘I’m going to make some lemon tea,’ she announced
resolutely. ‘Want some?’
Rosie, reed slim with a perfect peaches and cream
complexion and not a blemish on her young skin, rolled
her eyes to heaven.
‘The only thing I fancy with lemon in it is a vodka and
Red Bull,’ she said wickedly.
Evie stopped in her tracks. ‘Rosie! I’ve told you before:
no drinking here. Granddad would have a canary if he saw
you drinking spirits. Wine at dinner and that’s it. I know
you drink beer with your friends, I’ve smelt it. But not
here. This isn’t Dublin, you know. It you drink here, the
entire village will know about it and, believe me, they’ll be
talking about you. I don’t want that to happen.’ She
marched into the kitchen.
Her daughter scowled. I suppose a smoke is out of the
question? Rosie thought crossly as she blew on the logs in
the grate. What’s eating her? she wondered. Her mother
had been like a bear with a sore head all day. It was that
drippy Simon, she knew it. He was such a wet it was
unbelievable. Exactly what her mother saw in him Rosie
had no idea. At least he wasn’t going to be there for
Christmas; watching Simon’s irritating little mannerisms
for three whole days would have driven her to distraction.
Well, she was having a cigarette and if her mother didn’t
like it, tough. She wasn’t a kid anymore. With her head
angled towards the kitchen, listening for her mother’s
approaching footsteps, Rosie fished her pack of ten cigarettes
from her pocket and lit one. Then she stealthily
opened one of the windows, sat on the ledge and blew the
smoke out.
Knowing this place, some old bag would undoubtedly be
on the phone in five minutes telling the entire village that
Rosie Mitchell was chain smoking Rothman’s, she thought
crossly. It was like the middle ages. If they saw her drinking Budweiser, they’d probably try and burn her at the stake for being a witch.
Half an hour later, Evie had drunk two cups of lemon
tea, neither of which had filled the gap in her stomach like
a couple of sausage rolls would. She felt desperately guilty
for taking her temper out on Rosie and sternly told herself
to stop being such a grumpy pig. It wasn’t anybody else’s
fault that her fiance preferred to spend the festive season
with his mother and a selection of ancient relatives playing
Scrabble instead of with her.
She’d also put away the food she’d brought, amazed to
find that instead of having none of the drinks party stuff
organised, her father had trays of beautifully prepared
nibbles ready in the fridge.
Evie, who’d spent some of her meagre Christmas
budget buying large quantities of ready-made sausage
rolls, mini pizzas and sesame prawn toasts, realised that
the things in his fridge were wildly superior to her
shop-bought offerings. Delicate little savoury pastries and
smoked salmon parcels lined the fridge, elegantly arranged