Authors: Cathy Kelly
Stephen couldn’t come back until they were all healed,
all ready, otherwise they’d be back at square one in a year.
‘You shouldn’t,’ she said softly. ‘But I understand why
you did. We just need to give it a little longer …’
Their eyes met. He stretched across the table, over the
tray littered with empty burger boxes, and took her hand
in his. ‘I can wait,’ he said fiercely. ‘You’re so different now - so confident, so beautiful - that I get scared you’ll meet
someone else, someone who doesn’t need fucking therapy
so he doesn’t scream at his own kid.’
Olivia glared at him. ‘Language!’ she hissed, swivelling
her eyeballs to where Sasha sat talking quietly to herself
and her new toy.
‘Sorry. A father who needs therapy so he doesn’t swear
in front of his kid,’ Stephen amended apologetically. He
held her hand tightly, his voice almost a whisper. ‘I don’t
care what you do so long as I’ve got you, Olivia, don’t you
understand? I love you. Please don’t forget that or me.’
With her other hand, she softly stroked the corded veins
in his hand.
‘I’m not interested in anyone else, Stephen. I never was.
It’s always been you, but it has to be right. If what we have
is worth having, then we’ve got to fight for it.’
He nodded. It was then she realised that his eyes were
full of tears. Hard man Stephen MacKenzie was crying in
McDonald’s in full view of the genera! public. It was
unbelievable, incredible. Promising.
Olivia beamed at her husband. They were both changing,
thank God.
Lorraine flicked through The Star aimlessly, ignoring most
of the news. She paused at a picture of a glamorous
woman in a glittery dress and sighed.
‘Wouldn’t you love to be going to parties and premieres
every night of the week?’ she said.
Evie, spending her lunch hour laboriously ticking off
acceptances in her wedding notebook, murmured yes in
response.
‘I mean, look at this dress. It probably cost two grand
and I bet she didn’t have to pay for it. Designers give
people like Mia Koen dresses whenever they want them
just for the thrill of having her wear their outfit in the …
news,’ she added, as Evie whipped the paper from her,
scanning the photo.
How could any normal woman compete with that? she
thought furiously. Mia, clad in a bum-skimming sequinned
number that dipped so low in the front that the decollete
nearly met the hemline coming the other way, was pictured
on the arm of a famous singer leaving a private party
at the Merrion Hotel. Her chestnut hair was in artless
ripples around her slender shoulders and she was laughing, seemingly unaware she was being photographed. Cow!
Evie bet that woman could sense a photographer at live
hundred yards.
Staring at the photo as it she wanted to see every dot
individually, Evie searched for Max. There were people
behind Mia but none of them looked like a tall man with
strong shoulders and a jaw that could chisel marble.
He had to be there. Rosie had said he was back in
Dublin and although Evie would have loved to have asked
a million questions about him, she daren’t. It would kill
her to learn that he and Mia were together, the glittering
couple to beat all glittering couples: the successful producer
and the woman he’d made into a star.
‘She’s beautiful all right,’ sniffed Lorraine. ‘But I don’t
like her. Pofaced, if you ask me.’
‘Smug is the word I’d have used,’ Evie said bitterly.
Smug because she had everything in the world; everything
Evie wanted.
The intercom on the phone buzzed. It was Nicky
Wentworth, the dazzling blond new boss who sent
Lorraine and most of the female staff into spasms of
delight just by speaking in his husky Northern accent.
‘Evie, I know it’s your break but could you come into
my office for a wee minute?’
Lorraine stuck out her tongue suggestively and pretended
to pant like an overheated dog. ‘Lucky Evie,’ she
gasped. ‘If he asked me into the office for a wee minute on
my lunchbreak, I’d gallop in.’
‘Slapper,’ retorted Evie, sticking her tongue out in retaliation.
‘I’m not interested in him.’
‘Then you’re the only one who isn’t,’ sighed Lorraine
dreamily.
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
Scowling at her monitor, Cara repositioned Saturn until it
was the third planet from the sun and rearranged a couple
of stars as ordered. She didn’t see why she had to mess
with the solar system simply because the creative director
wanted ‘that planet with the rings’ nearer the front of the
ad. In a fit of wickedness, she put Earth closest to the sun
and vowed that if any astronomer complained about this
fatal and reckless rearrangement of the solar system for a
washing machine advert, she wasn’t taking the blame. The
creative director, a man so obsessed with the world of
advertising that he genuinely thought the Milky Way was a
chocolate bar, could take the rap.
Intent on the job in hand, she heard the door to the
office swing open but didn’t turn around. ‘I hope you’ve
bought supplies, Penny,’ she grumbled. ‘I could murder
some crisps.’
‘No, but I could offer you dinner later if you’re that
ravenous,’ said a familiar voice.
Cara dropped her electronic pen in shock and whirled
around to see Ewan lounging against the door jamb, looking
effortlessly cool and relaxed even in the humid atmosphere
of her non-air-conditioned eyrie. His green eyes glowed like
tourmalines in a face tanned caramel by the sun and his
dark curly hair was longer than ever, brushing the collar of
the white linen shirt he wore loose over khaki combats.
Like a round-the-world traveller who’d just wandered back
after trekking leisurely around Morocco, he looked so
laid-back he was practically horizontal.
‘Hi,’ she said, flustered and wishing she’d had some
warning he was back. Here he was looking wonderful after
two weeks away and she was greasy-haired and hollow
eyed from yet another late night comforting Phoebe. And,
she was wearing a desperate faded brown T-shirt over her
jeans because she’d been too busy to do any of her holiday
washing. It was too small, had a gaping hole under one
armpit and looked like something Oxfam wouldn’t allow
in the shop.
‘Have a nice holiday?’ she asked.
‘Great. I went to Tunisia.’ He didn’t move, just watched
her with those intense eyes. ‘And you?’
‘Wonderful, marvellous. We had great weather in Spain
and I actually ended up lying in the sun, even though you
know I’m not the greatest sunbather in the world,’ she rattled
on, trying to fill up his meaningful silence with words. She
knew she should say something but she didn’t know how.
Despite her nervous prattling, she was at a loss for words.
‘Ken said you were looking for me at the beginning of
the week?’
‘Yeah, I wanted to say hello … No.’ Cara went over to
him. She had to say this and there was no point waiting
until she was all dolled up like a dog’s dinner with freshly
washed hair to do it. ‘It was more than that.’ The words
tumbled out: “I wanted to tell you that I was crazy about
you and that I was so sorry for the way I hurt you. Please
let’s try again?’
They were practically the same height and as she stood
just feet away from Ewan, Cara searched his face for a sign
that he understood, that he wanted her back.
For an agonising few moments he didn’t say a word. Then,
his hands were around her waist, his mouth was on hers and
they were kissing, melting together frantically as if they
couldn’t believe this incredible thing was happening.
‘Oh, Ewan, I’ve missed you so much, I’ve been so
stupid!’ cried Cara, her mouth buried in his hair while his
blazed a white hot trail along her neck.
‘Me too, Cara,’ he said hoarsely.
‘I wanted to tell you on Monday. I’ve thought about it all
the time I was away, that it was all my fault with my stupid
neuroses. I mean, who the hell does it matter to that we’re
going out with each other?’
‘I know.’ His lips were at her collarbone now, devouring
her.
‘There was a reason, you know,’ Cara said, feeling the
desire leaping in her belly like a salmon leaping upstream.
‘A stupid reason but still a reason. I want to tell you about
it. It happened when I was at college and I never let myself
get over it.’
He stopped kissing her, his face anxious. ‘What happened
in college?’
His mouth was dark from being bruised against hers and
his pupils were huge with hunger, mirroring her own eyes
Suddenly, Cara decided that she’d tell him later. They
had all the time in the world.
‘We’ll talk about it tonight,’ she said, bringing her mouth
down on his, ‘in bed.’
When Penny climbed the stairs to the graphic design
department a few minutes later, carefully carrying two
mugs of tea and a Kit-kat, she found her mentor wrapped
in a heated clinch with someone who looked like that
lovely Ewan Walshe from copywriting. Penny thought it
was him but you couldn’t be sure because most of his face
was buried in Cara’s Tshirt.
As quietly as she could, she shut the door, went back
down to the halfway step and unwrapped the Kit-kat. She
wished she looked exotic and dramatic like Cara. Those
cheekbones, the huge, reddened mouth and the rippling
black hair made her stand out. Men were always looking at
her admiringly when they went out for lunch together.
Penny longed for men to look at her like that: hungrily yet
cautiously, as if Cara’s fierce hazel eyes fascinated yet
frightened them in equal measures.
Penny finished the Kit-kat. If reincarnation worked, she
was putting her name down for a Cara Fraser body and
face, definitely.
Mary Todd looked uneasy. Evie tried not to notice. Her
future mother-in-law always looked uneasy.
‘Do you think we’d be able to look after that big garden?’
Mary asked fearfully, as if the property had several, sprawling acres at the back instead of a long, narrow wilderness
even Evie’s short legs could cross in fifteen large steps.
‘Of course,’ Evie said impatiently, determined that whoever
did look after the garden, it wouldn’t be her. Then,
seeing Mary’s pinched little face, felt sorry for sounding
snappy and put an arm around the older woman. ‘It’ll be
fun, Mary,’ she said. ‘Imagine it all tidied up with a bit of
lawn there and some nice garden loungers where we could
sit on sunny days. Herbs maybe, by the patio, so the smell
would hit us and some plants in patio tubs.’
Mary didn’t look convinced. A fragile seventy year old,
she was in constant fear of crooked paving stones and wet
leaves in case she fell and broke something. The patio in
the property she and Evie were viewing had more uneven
paving stones than even ones. It’d all have to be ripped up
and relaid if Mary was ever to sit outside with any degree
of confidence.
Evie thought of how Rosie carelessly left magazines,
tennis rackets and school bags abandoned on the floor and
on every step of the stairs at home and wondered how
Mary would fare if they were all living in the same house.
This place was certainly big enough for the four of
them: the ground-floor annexe had one bedroom, a small
sitting room and shower room, while the rest of the house
had four bedrooms, a sitting room-cum-dining room, two
bathrooms and a big kitchen. Large and therefore expensive,
it was only within their price bracket because Mary,
Simon and Evie were all going to contribute money
towards its purchase. It was also desperately rundown and
needed huge amounts of renovation. Looking at the prewar
decoration, Evie gloomily predicted a lifetime of
stripping wallpaper and sanding down wood.
‘I don’t know if it’s right,’ Mary said tremulously. ‘I
know Simon said I’d like it but I’m not sure …’
Evie cursed Simon and the inevitable meeting which
meant she was the one using up her precious half-day off
showing his mother around the latest house that was, ‘Just
perfect for us, Evie”!’
‘Mary, we’ve all got to love it,’ she said wearily. ‘Don’t
worry your head about it if you don’t. Your opinion is just
as valid as Simon’s. He can just find another house.’
‘But with the wedding only two weeks away, we’ll have
to get it sorted before you go away to Greece,’ Mary said,
twisting the handles of her beloved patent handbag with
nerves.
‘Not to worry if we don’t,’ Evie said with false cheeriness.
‘We’ll manage until later in the year. Houses will be
cheaper in the autumn, anyway.’
She settled Mary in the passenger seat, closed the door
and closed her eyes. She felt totally frazzled. And the day
wasn’t over yet. The hotel wanted to see her about some