Authors: Cathy Kelly
share because Ewan’s going to be in with me. Poor Rosie is
in bits because there’s no room for her in the annexe. Evie
can’t understand it because Vida has a lovely bedroom
with a half-tester bed in it for Rosie.’
‘Rosie probably thinks we’ll all be drinking and sitting
up till very late being wild,’ Zoe said, ‘and she’s wrong.
Phoebe will be watching old films all day, I’ll be going
round like a mad woman at the relief of missing the
testosterone-filled war zone at home, and you and Ewan will be breaking the new bed in your bedroom as you practise for the Sexual Olympics.’
‘Ha bloody ha,’ retorted Cara goodhumouredly. She
was feeling so very happy. She was spending Christmas
with Ewan, her family and the girls. Vida’s idea had been a
marvellous one. The new house in Ballymoreen was finally
finished, a masterpiece of Victorian architecture and a
testament to Andrew’s ability to sweet talk the builders
into actually finishing it when they’d said they would.
The main house had five bedrooms, four reception
rooms and a huge, stone-floored kitchen where the dogs,
Gooch and Jessie, took great delight in sliding up and
down on the tiles when they were excited. One of the
stables had been converted into a self-contained apartment
with two bedrooms, a bathroom and a large kitchen-cum
sitting room with a real fireplace.
When Cara had turned down the offer of a family
Christmas at home and explained that she was going to
stay in Dublin with Phoebe for the holidays because she
was getting so much grief from her father about being
pregnant and unmarried, Vida had immediately suggested
the annexe.
‘You can be in peace there and do your own thing but
it’d be lovely to have you with us over the holiday,’ she
said hopefully. ‘Phoebe could do with a change of scene,
I’m sure, to help her get over being abandoned by that
awful boyfriend of hers. Your father would be heartbroken
if you didn’t come to us.’
Zoe, hearing about the plan, had immediately given Cara
a sad-eyed, And rex-puppy look that plainly said, ‘Please,
please, can I come too?’
It was now two days before Christmas and they were
leaving on the six o’clock bus that evening. The morning’s
shopping had yielded all sorts of Christmas gifts and plenty
of edible goodies for the holiday. But nothing was
wrapped, nobody had packed so much as a pair of knickers
and Zoe had been saying she had to drop home and grab
her stuff for at least the past hour.
‘Why don’t you wrap the presents and I’ll start packing?’
Cara suggested to Phoebe. And you go home, for God’s
sake,’ she added to Zoe, who was now reading Cara’s
horoscope, ‘it’s nearly three and we have to leave here at
half-four to get to the bus.’
‘ “Librans will be fulfilled this Yuletide,” ‘ Zoe giggled.
‘You can say that again! Ewan is very keen on fulfilling
you. “They should be aware of overindulging in rich foods
but this will be a time of rejoicing for them.”
‘Go home,’ Cara said, shooing her out into the hall. ‘I
will not be rejoicing if we miss the bus because of you, you
big eejit.’
‘Ah, sure, if we miss it, we can all drive down with Ewan
tomorrow afternoon,’ protested Zoe, who hated travelling
on buses.
‘Oh, yeah? Four suitcases, ten bags of presents, three
boxes filled with chocolates, booze and cake, and four
people are going to fit into one small sports car? Get out.
We are not missing the bus and that’s that.’
In the end, they made the bus at the very last minute
which meant the luggage compartment was almost totally
full with the other travellers’ Christmas packages and the
three of them would have to sit with boxes and bags on
their laps for the entire journey.
‘I’ll kill you, Zoe.’ muttered Cara, failing to get comfortable as the bus edged along in the horrendous Christmas
traffic, moving a foot at a time. ‘The journey is going to
take three hours at this rate and I’ll have no circulation left in my legs with this box on my lap.’
‘Ah, shut up,’ said Zoe from the seat in front, just as uncomfortable with the wine box on her lap. ‘We got here, didn’t we?’
Battling hordes of crazed Christmas shoppers desperate
to abandon cars in the already-jammed city centre car
parks, the bus crawled out of Dublin at a snail’s pace. The
Christmas spirit was noticeably absent with much bickering
about being squashed and grumbling that the heating
didn’t work.
‘I’m buying a car next year,’ Cara growled to Phoebe,
who was beside her. But Phoebe was asleep, her round face
content as she slept, hands clasped around her belly,
protecting her precious cargo. Cara smiled. Her flatmate
was being so strong about having this baby on her own. If
she could deal with that and with being dumped by Ricky,
then it was ludicrous Cara and Zoe bitching about being
stuck on a crowded bus. So they’d be squashed for a while?
Big deal.
The bus driver had had enough of his bad-tempered
passengers. He slotted a tape of Christmas carols into the
tape deck. As the sound of a children’s choir singing ‘Silent
Night’ drifted into the air, the entire bus seemed to take a
collective breath and remember the whole point of the
season. A hand holding a packet of toffees shot back from
the seat in front. ‘D’you want a sweet?’ hissed Zoe, her red
head appearing around the back.
‘Love one,’ said Cara. ‘Sorry I was so cross with you. I’m
a bad-tempered old cow sometimes.’
‘That makes two of us,’ Zoe agreed.
They chewed their toffees companionably for a while. “I
think I’ll try and doze,’ Cara said eventually, realising that
the journey would feel like forever if she couldn’t block
some of it out.
She closed her eyes but couldn’t sleep. There were so
many things to think about that she just couldn’t switch off.
Ewan, lovely Ewan, was in her head all the time. They’d
discussed moving in together and the very thought of it gave
Cara a warm glow in the pit of her stomach. Imagine waking
up with him every morning, sharing the bathroom with
him, curling up watching TV together, doing the grocery
shopping together, spending hours in bed on Saturday
mornings, reading, snoozing, making love …
The only problem was Phoebe. Cara didn’t want to
abandon her friend in her time of need. If only they could
get two flats together so that they could be just down the
hail if she needed anything. Then they could both help
looking after the baby. Cara rather liked the idea of that.
She could imagine herself and Ewan strolling along the
canal, talking baby talk and pointing out the swans and
ducks. Phoebe had already insisted that Cara should be
godmother.
‘You’ve got to be,’ she said at least once a day. ‘You’re so
good to me, coming with me to scans and stuff.’
‘Your mother would go with you if you asked her,’ Cara
said delicately, hoping to heal the rift that Phoebe’s desperately religious father had started within her family.
‘She hasn’t so far,’ Phoebe replied gloomily.
The next thing Cara knew, Zoe was shaking her awake.
‘We’re here. Get up or the bus will drive off again and God
knows where we’ll end up.’
Like the three wise men burdened with gifts, the three
of them staggered off the bus. Andrew stood waiting for
them.
‘Dad!’ Cara practically collapsed against him from the
weight she was carrying. ‘I’ve never been so pleased to see
anyone in my life.’
He hugged her back tightly. I’m so glad you’re here,
love,’ he said. ‘So glad. Christmas just wouldn’t have been
the same if you hadn’t come.’
‘Unfortunately,’ said Zoe, ‘you’ve got us pair into the
bargain.’
Andrew gave her and Phoebe hugs as well. ‘We’re
thrilled to have you all. Vida has lasagne, baked potatoes
and mulled wine waiting for you, and the dogs are hysterical
with the excitement. They know someone is coming
and every time the doorbell rings, they go insane. Gooch
has all his teddies lined up inside the back door, ready to
give them to guests as presents. Just be warned, girls:
Gooch’s teddies are all covered in drool and dog food.’
Cara beamed as she started shoving bags and boxes into
the boot of her father’s car. It was wonderful to be home.
Olivia shut the front door, dropped her briefcase and bags
on to the hall floor and levered her feet out of the spindly
stilettos she’d worn to the office party. It had still been in
full swing when she’d left, despite the fact that it had
started at lunchtime and the time was now seven o’clock.
The Wake Up Morning Show set in Studio One would
never be the same again, what with all the booze spilt on
Nancy’s precious settees and the amount of abuse the
fragile set had been given by giggling and sozzled staff
falling over things as they danced to the seventies disco
music some bright spark had put on.
‘Don’t go, Olivia,’ Kevin had wailed when she’d said
goodbye to everyone and put her plastic cup of mineral
water down on the only inch of the make-shift bar that
wasn’t already covered with wine bottles and empty cups.
A silver paper hat sat sideways on top of Kevin’s
peroxide crop and there were multi-coloured streamers
hanging around his neck. He was plastered.
He threw his arms around her. ‘Don’t go,’ he pleaded,
breathing booze fumes at her. ‘We love you, don’t we,
everyone:
Anyone who could still speak slurred, ‘Yesh.’
‘See?’ Kevin was so proud. ‘Nobody would say yesh for
Nancy’
Olivia kissed her friend and confidant on the cheek and
untangled herself ‘I have to go home, it’s a special night for
Stephen and me.’
‘Sorry. Forgot. Hope it all works out for you both.
Kissy-kissy and I’ll see you in January.’
Olivia put her winter coat in the hall cupboard and
padded quietly to the kitchen door.
Something that smelled delicious was bubbling away in
the oven. Stephen had his back to the door and was bent over
the sink. Sasha was sitting up at the table, small face solemn
as she inexpertly stuck cotton wool on to Santa’s crayoned-in
red hat. Scraps of paper, crayons, fluorescent pens and a tube
of child-friendly glue lay scattered on the table.
‘How are you getting on with Santa?’ asked Stephen,
moving away from the worktop where he was washing
peppers for the salad to go with the coq au inn he’d been
labouring over.
Neither of them had heard Olivia come into the apartment.
She watched silently, her heart bursting with happiness
at the scene in front of her.
Stephen bent over Sasha, nuzzling her hair as he
admired her handiwork.
‘That’s very good. You’re so clever,’ he said proudly.
‘It’s for you and Mummy,’ Sasha said, still concentrating
on her cotton wool.
‘Mummy loves it,’ Olivia murmured, going over to the
table. She kissed the top of Sasha’s head then turned to
Stephen. He wrapped his arms around her and kissed her
full on the mouth. He tasted of garlic. He tasted wonderful.
She kissed him back, closing her eyes and giving in to
the sensation.
‘I didn’t expect you back so soon.’
‘I wanted to leave for ages, I wanted to get home to you
two. But it was so difficult. Linda’s about the only sober
person left at the party,’ Olivia explained. ‘The studio is a
disaster area and she kept wandering round, saying, “We’ll
never get this fixed!”
‘I’m delighted you’re home early,’ Stephen said, still
holding on to her.
‘Christmas starts here.’ Olivia leaned her head tiredly on
his shoulder.
‘I don’t know why we never did this before: have
Christmas at home on our own,’ Stephen sighed. ‘It’s so
relaxed here, just the three of us.’
‘And the guinea pig,’ Sasha piped up.
Her parents burst out laughing. Santa had been asked for
a guinea pig. Two were arriving the next day, complete
with a palace of a hutch and all sorts of guinea pig goodies.
‘Just the five of us for Christmas, then,’ whispered
Olivia into Stephen’s ear before nibbling it tenderly.
He held her closer to him. ‘If you keep doing that,’ he
said with a smirk, ‘there’ll be six of us next Christmas.’
She smiled contentedly. ‘That sounds wonderful.’ she
said dreamily.
Evie unearthed her handbag from behind the driver’s
seat, pulled her coat on over her old sweatshirt and
locked the door. She felt exhausted after the drive down
to Ballymoreen. It had been all endless traffic and
maddened drivers overtaking on dangerous corners.
Thanks to the traffic, it was now half-nine at night and
Evie wanted nothing more than to sink into her bed in
her own home and not have to make polite conversation
with anyone. There was no chance of that.
As soon as they’d pulled up outside Andrew and Vida’s
new home, Rosie had bounced out of the car and run