Shame On Me (17 page)

“Love never fails darlin’.”

We stayed up all night getting to know each other all over again. We agreed that our downfall was too much time spent apart, so our solution is to have a date once a week and talk daily.

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I often feel like a teenager when I find myself giggling at a text he sent me. We have yet to have sex again and the anticipation is driving us crazy. We have been on eleven dates and I have a feeling that the twelfth will be our lucky night. Tonight will be our second double date with Ava and Steve, and I’m hoping she’ll play sick so we can leave early.

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At dinner…Ethan

“When are you two planning to have babies?” I ask as soon as dessert is consumed.

“Please don’t get Steve started. If he had his way I’d be on baby number two by now,” Ava says exasperated.

“What’s wrong with that? You promised that if I waited until June you’d have a baby as soon as I was ready.”

“Well I didn’t think you’d be ready on our honeymoon.”

“Why wouldn’t I want a mini version of you? Why wouldn’t I want to create a baby with my wife?”

I watch Ava turn pleading eyes to Mia and I decide to have a little fun.

“Mia how many kids do you want to have?”

“One.”

“Only one?”

“How many kids do you want to have?”

“At least two.”

“Why two?”

“I never liked being an only child plus I’d love to have multiple mini versions of you.”

Can he get any sweeter? “You’re getting up there in age old man, when do you plan to get started?”

“Old man huh? We can get started tonight and I’ll show you how much of an old man I am.” My cheeks are burning and I know they must be red.

“See Ava, even Ethan wants kids and they aren’t even married.” Steve interrupts.

I smirk at Ava’s distress but wipe my face clean when Mia turns my way.

“Umm, do you want to dance?”

“No, but we can go for a walk. Are you two coming?”

I see Mia quickly give Ava a subtle headshake and I’m happy she did.

“Umm, Steve I’m tired lets just go home,” she suggests with a hint of seduction.

“Anything for you baby.”

We all stand outside of the restaurant and say goodbye before heading our separate ways. I make sure that Mia is all bundled up in her pea coat, hat, gloves, and scarf before we head to the walkway by the waterfront. We stop to cuddle at the end of a secluded dock and watch the boats drift by.

“Darlin’?”

“Hmm?”

“Have I told you how beautiful you look tonight?”

“No, but if you don’t stop rubbing against me we won’t make it to your comfy bed.”

“What if I don’t want to wait? What if I want to practice making a baby right now?” I whisper.

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Mia

I turn to face him and see my hunger mirrored in his eyes. Because of my heels, I am the perfect height to access his lips easily so I lean forward and softly brush his lips with mine. We both sharply pull in a breath before I press chaste kisses to his lips.

Those chaste kisses quickly lead up to our mouths opening and tongues tasting. This is the first time since we got back together that our tongues got in on the action and I’m happy we waited. During this kiss his hand moves from my waist to my neck and his other hand moves from my waist to my breast.

OMG that feels great! I throw my head back in pleasure and Ethan takes advantage by nibbling on my neck. The way he’s nibbling on it, I know there will be several passion marks there in the morning. This realization only excites me more and my leg rises to wrap around his hip. He groans against my neck and lifts me so my legs wrap around him.

“Ethan if you don’t stop soon we could get into trouble,” I groan.

“Sometimes its worth the risk,” he says huskily.

He settles me against the top rail before hiking my dress up to my waist. In an instant a hole is cut into the crotch of my stockings and my thong is snapped and pulled off of my body.

“I liked those panties.”

“I’ll buy you more,” he mumbles against my lips. “Open your legs.”

I do and feel his fingers work the hole in my stockings larger before softly touching the lips of my cupcake. I quickly pull air into my empty lungs the same time that he groans.

“You’re so wet baby.” I love it when he talks dirty to me.

“Why don’t you see how wet,” I suggest. His fingers separate my folds and softly stroke my clit.

“Mmm,” I groan. I can’t stop my hips from rocking against his hand. He takes the hint and inserts two fingers. “Yes!” My voice quivers and Ethan groans into my neck.

“Take out your breasts baby.” My fingers fumble to undo the buttons on my coat and free my breasts from my bra. “Lift one to my mouth baby.” I do and my cupcake instantly floods. “Mmm I think you’re ready darlin’. I would rather do this in my bed but what’s better than making love under the stars?”

“Ethan I’m close.”

“I know. Let me feel it flood my fingers.” He moves his hand from my neck to my waist for a firmer grip and works his fingers faster.

“I’m goin to-“

“Give it to me baby.” And just like that I do. I squirt all over his pumping hand and his coat sleeve. He continues to finger my cupcake as I come down, which only builds me right back up again.

“Good girl.” He mumbles as he pulls me off of the railing. He turns my back to him and I hear him opening a condom. He’s been tested since his last sexual encounter but wants to wait until his next A.I.D.S test before we have unprotected sex again. Can this man get any better?

“I want to feel your ass bounce against me as I dive deep.”

Oh yeah, he just got better.

I arch my back in anticipation of having him inside me again.

“Hurry Ethan.”

“Shh darlin’, let me drive.”

He slowly works his way inside me and it feels like I’m whole again. After a few pumps he is fully seated inside me. He doesn’t move for a while, allowing us both a chance to savor this moment. Just as I’m getting antsy for him to move, he does.

His pumps start off slow and soft as his hands caress my ass, but when his hands move to my hips his strokes become rougher and my cupcake starts to flood. When it does, he slaps my ass and groans. I begin pushing back onto him chasing that feeling that will push me over that orgasmic cliff.

“This is going to be fast darlin’, but I need two more from you first.”

I groan my agreement as he reaches around and strokes my clit. His fingers are my undoing and I cum hard and loud. Ethan has to use one hand to muffle my screams and the other hand to pull me up straight. His hand leaves my mouth and wraps around my throat. Shit I’m gonna cum hard!

“Ethan, Ethan again!” He understands that I’m close again and tightens his grip on my throat while pumping faster to get me there.

“I know darlin’, damn you’re so tight. Have you let anyone else in my pussy?”

Damn he knows what that talk does to me.

“No,” I whisper.

“Come on darlin’, help me cum with you. Is it mine?”

“All yours.”

“For how long?”

“Forever!” I hoarsely scream while coming.

“Damn right,” he grunts coming after me. He continues to pump until I have one more small orgasm.

“I love you babe.”

“Love you too Mia.”

We get ourselves together before eventually separating and straightening our clothes. I watch as he throws the condom in the trash and am grateful he only tore a hole in my stockings. It would’ve been a pain removing my boots to take off ruined stockings. We walk hand in hand back to the car and at his place we snuggle in bed exhausted.

“We need to get a place that has a skylight so I can see the stars whenever we make love.”

“Are you asking me to move in wither you?”

“Maybe,” I mumble into his neck and promptly fall asleep.

****

The next morning I stare at his new tattoo on his left shoulder; he got it right after we got back together and I absolutely love it. It’s a tattoo of me sitting on the beach in a cami and long skirt. I’m playing a guitar with my eyes closed as the waves lap at my feet and the wind blows my hair and skirt. I have huge hoops in my ears and a huge smile on my face. I look peaceful and happy all at the same time.

I love it so much that I’m going to reward him with a blowjob for inking me on him.  I slowly stroke his junk before running my tongue over the top of it. He doesn’t fully wake up, just tangles his fingers in my hair and guide me further down his junk. He finally opens his eyes when his junk hits the back of my throat.

“Damn Mia.”

I continue to take him further down my throat inch by inch. I gag a little as I deep throat him and it causes him to moan even louder. His grip on my hair gets tighter and I know he’s close.

“Yes baby take it, swallow every drop,” he commands as he continues to pump my head on his junk. His back arches off the bed as he pumps ounces down my throat. He falls back to the bed panting as I lazily suck him soft.

“Where did that come from?”

“It’s raining,” I say shrugging. He knows that rain always turns me on. In the past we had the wildest sex on rainy days.

“How about we try out the waterfall shower?” he suggests. I pretend to contemplate this before running to the bathroom and yelling “okay” over my shoulder.

With a shower like that we can have a rainy day everyday.

Chapter Twenty-Six

Getting It Right

Over the next few months we split our free time between hanging with the boys and movie nights with Ava and Steve. We do more things as a couple and it has brought us closer than ever. We decided to celebrate our second four-month anniversary with a quiet night of movies and popcorn at his house.

While he’s at work I fill his room with Vanilla Butter Cream candles and Ava helps me into my bustier. I model my pretty baby blue and black bustier with cheeky panties for her review.

“What do you think?” I ask nervously.

“I think he’s going to blow his load before he even touches you.”

“Well I hope not.”

I look at my watch and realize I only have twenty minutes before Ethan will be home. I rush Ava out the door and light all the candles. I throw on a t-shirt and leggings over my lingerie and start the popcorn. The microwave dings the same time I hear Ethan coming in.

“Hey babe,” I yell from the kitchen.

“Hi beautiful.”

I carry the popcorn to the living room and plop down on the sofa next to him.

“I missed you,” I say after kissing him.

“I missed you too.”

“So do you want to watch a movie first or exchange gifts first?”

“Gifts,” he replies as he pulls a piece of paper from under the couch cushion.

“How did you know I wouldn’t look there?”

“I knew you would, so I moved my hiding place everyday.”

“Very sneaky,” I tease as I unfold the paper. It’s a confirmation for a cruise in three weeks. “Babe I love it, thank you! I have to see if Kate will let me off.”

“I already worked it out with her.” I scream as I jump onto his lap. After a well deserved make out session I suggest we watch a movie in the bedroom.

Ethan slides the door to the bedroom open and freezes when he sees the room covered in candles. I gently push him into the room and ask him to sit on the bed.

I straightened and curled my hair earlier, so when I release my hair from the clip it bounces softly past my shoulders. I pick up the sound system remote from the bed and play Beyonce’s “Dance for You” and begin a strip tease.

I begin with my leggings and work my way up. Once my shirt is off I pull my hair over my right shoulder so he can get a glimpse of my ne
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Love Never Fail
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tattoo with a small black butterfly under it.

It’s an impulsive tattoo but I want him to know how serious I am about us. I promised him that if he gave me another chance I’d go the distance. I’m not going to let him go again and my tattoo is proof of that.

I peek over my shoulder to see his reaction and am shocked to see him standing right behind me. I sigh as he runs his index finger over it slowly, as if in a trance.

“When did you get it?”

“Last week.”

“Is this why you’ve been coming to bed fully clothed?”

“Yes.”

“Why did you get it?”

“Because I found the right man.”

“What do you plan to do with him?”

“Keep him forever.”

“Forever? Do you want to be my wife?” His accented voice asks.

“More than anything.”

I then feel his lips tenderly kiss my tattoo and it feels like heaven. “You want to be with me forever?”

“Yes babe.”