The Rocker That Holds Me (6 page)

I let out a relieved sigh. “Thank the gods.”

“Let me get your blood pressure and temperature, dear.” She put a cuff on my arm without the IV and a thermometer under my tongue. While she waited for the vitals to register she glanced around her. “You boys okay with the sight of blood?”

“Yes, ma’am.”
Jesse assured the woman. “But what does that have to do with anything?”

“I have to take out the IV in Miss Jameson’s arm. If you can’t handle the
sight of blood then I suggest you fellows get out until she’s all bandaged up.”

I shot Shane a quick look. “Maybe you should go get some more coffee.” I suggested. He didn’t have to be told twice. The guy can look at his own blood all day long, but anyone else’s and he tended to lose it.

The nurse laughed as she pulled the cuff from my arm, wrote a few things on her clip board and then reached for my arm with the IV. The thing was taped up nice and tight and I couldn’t help but whimper as the nurse pulled the tape off. Then she was easing the needle from my arm and patching me up with a small bandage.

“Okay dear, these are the doctor’s instructions. Follow up with your personal doctor in the next week. Come back if you start feeling faint, unable to keep liquids down, or develop a high fever.” She tore off the top sheet of paper and handed it over along with a smaller piece of paper.
“And a prescription for vitamins. My suggestion is take them at bed time because they tend to upset the stomach.”

“Vitamins?”
Jesse frowned. “That’s it? Just vitamins?”

“There isn’t much that we can give her.” The nurse told him as she turned to him.

“Why the fuck not?” Drake demanded, standing beside of the drummer. “She’s very sick!”

“Guys…”

The nurse just laughed and I groaned, knowing that the shit was about to hit the fan. “A baby doesn’t exactly qualify as a serious illness, honey.”

“What…” Jesse
.

“…The…”
Drake.

“FUCK!”
Nik.

“Emmie!?!”
Jesse again. He was beside me in an instant. “What the fuck is she talking about, a baby?” His eyes were on fire with confused rage.

I sighed and pushed the hair away from my face, knowing that I had to face this full on. I had wanted to ease into telling them. But now, thanks to the nurse I had to do it now. I wasn’t ready for this! I wasn’t ready to tell them anything.

Of course they would want to know
everything
.

“I’m pregnant.” I finally told him and watched as his dark eyes widened.
His nose flared and I was reminded of a raging bull. Great! I glared at the nurse. The woman muttered a quick excuse and got the hell out of the way. Yes, it was easy to determine who my least favorite person in the world was right then.

“How is that even possible?” Drake demanded.

Despite the seriousness of the situation I actually laughed at him. “You mean you don’t know the how, Drake?”

He gave me a withering look and I lost my smile. “Don’t try to be cute, Em. You know exactly what the fuck I mean.”

“What’s all the shouting about?” Shane demanded, walking back into the room.

“Emmie is pregnant.” Jesse snarled.

“How the fuck is that even possible?” He demanded, turning to me in shock. Yes, you could tell who the biological brothers were in the band.

“Who?”

My eyes zeroed in on Nik and his softly spoken question. “What?”

Those ice blue eyes of his that have always been able to see to my very soul were on fire now. “Who, Emmie? Who is the father?” And his gaze went straight to Jesse. “Or do I already know.”

“What?” I couldn’t believe he would think that Jesse…

“What the fuck, Nik!” Jesse raged at his friend. “You think I would..? Have you lost your fucking mind? She might be hot, but I would never touch her! She’s like my sister.”

“I don’t believe you.” Nik’s voice was ice cold and I knew then and there that he was beyond pissed. Nik only went
subzero when he was truly pissed. I wasn’t sure how or even why he was so angry. The rest of the guys were mad, sure. But not like Nik was. “I see the way you look at her. I see how she is always clinging to you.”

“Nik…” I broke off when his gaze turned to me. I couldn’t breathe for a moment as I took in the rage burning in his gorgeous eyes.
He’s never looked at me like that. “Nik, Jesse isn’t the father.”

“The
n who, Em?” He crossed the room so quick I didn’t have time to blink. He leaned his hands on the bed on either side of me and pushed his face so close I could actually taste the coffee on his breath. “Who the fuck touched you?!”

I couldn’t speak.
Couldn’t form the words that he needed me to say. How could I tell him when he was in this frame of mind? Why was he in this frame of mind? This man who has watched over me almost all my life, who has sang me my own lullaby, who has loved me like a sister, and treated me like I was so special…He was looking like he hated me right now and I didn’t understand it.

Drake pulled him back. “Stop it, Nik. Can’t you see that she is terrified of you right now?”

“Just tell me who!”

“Why?” I cried. “Why do you have to know so badly?”

“So I can kill him!” He bellowed.

Tears spilled from my eyes. “What’s wrong with you, Nik? Why are you acting like this?”

“Axton? He was sniffing around a few months ago. Was it him? I saw him with his hands all over you last night.” He was struggling to get free from Drake now and I was scared that if Drake lost his hold on him he would hit me. “Was it him!?”

“No!”

“Who!”

Jesse put himself between me and Nik, but he turned to me and grasped my hands. “Tell him, Em. Tell him so that he will calm down.”

“I…” I shook my head. If I said it out loud then that would be it. I couldn’t hide behind my walls anymore. Shame burned my face.

“Someone in this room?”
Nik demanded. “Is it?”

“Yes.” I whispered and Jesse’s head snapped back as if I had slapped him. His eyes met mine and I knew that he knew so I lowered mine back to the bed.

Nik heard me. It was like he had supersonic hearing because I had barely even heard myself. “Who, Em? Tell me who.” Had his voice actually cracked?

I swallowed hard and blinked away my tears, but was unable to contain them. “Nik…”

“WHO!”

“YOU!”

If I told you it was possible for me to violate someone I love would you believe me? It’s true. I took something that wasn’t meant for me. I took it, and pretended like I hadn’t. I took it, cherished every fucking second.

I’m a bad person. I took advantage of my friend, of someone who has spent his life making mine better. Nik trusted me. I was the one person in his life that if he couldn’t trust then there was no one else. And I destroyed that trust.

Four months ago I was weak and selfish. But up until today, this second I wasn’t sorry about it. Had only ever let myself think about it when I was alone in my hotel rooms. When my love and need for Nik overwhelmed me to the point that I had no choice but to relive my stolen night with him.

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For once we had made it a whole day before a concert. I was glad because there was a storm brewing outside and I hated being on the bus during a thunderstorm. Even at twenty-one years old I was still terrified of thunder.

I huddled under my blanket and tried to keep my mind off the growing rage of the storm outside, but it was no use. So I grabbed my room key along with the others and ran from my room. The lights flickered as I ran the length of the corridor and opened the door to Nik’s room. I knew I shouldn’t
, that I was chancing walking in on him with some groupie, but the thunder was just too much for me.

When I opened the door to his room I was surprised to find him alone, and took a second to delight in the fact that he wasn’t with some slut.
The light from the bathroom was on and the door was slightly ajar, casting a soft glow across the room. He was laying on his back with one hand pillowed under his head while the other…

The other stroked his hard cock.

I sucked in a breath, getting my first look at Nik aroused. He was completely naked, and the long, broad length of him stretched just passed his belly button. His balls, those perfectly round sacs were tight as he continued to stroke his hand up and down his pulsing dick. My mouth went dry as I shamelessly watched.

“Finally.”
He slurred and I realized that he was drunk.

“Finally what?”
I breathed, unable to find a stronger voice.

“You finally came to me. God, I’ve been aching for you all night.” He sat up and held out the hand that wasn’t st
roking himself, something that he was still doing. His fingers wiggled, enticing me to come to him. “Come here, baby.”

Without thinking I went to him and put my hand in his. With a little tug he pulled me down beside of him on the bed.
“Feel.” Still holding my hand he brought it to his cock and cupped my fingers around him. “Do you feel how much I need you?”

“Yes.” I whispered, captivated by the sight of my fingers gliding up and down his engorged cock.

I knew that it was wrong. Nik was drunk and thought I was one of the groupies come to play with him. But in the instant that I touch that live wire that was his dick I knew that I didn’t care. I wanted him, have wanted him for so long. And I loved him in a way that no one else ever would.

It didn’t matter that I was a virgin, or that he most likely wouldn’t remember in the morning, by which time I planned on being long gone from this bed. The storm raging outside no longer mattered; was completely from my thoughts as I leaned in and kissed Nik.

His groan was deep, sexy and made me shiver as I felt his tongue skim across my bottom lip. “So sweet. Never tasted anything this sweet before.” He devoured my mouth, made me dizzy with need and stole my breath. My fingers knotted in his thick hair, needing to hold on as he began the wild ride that I had only ever dreamed about with this man.

“Easy baby.”
He chuckled in the rich, seductive way I loved so much. “I’m not going anywhere.”

“I want you so much.” I told him, unafraid of my true feelin
gs in the darkness of his booze fogged mind. “I need you, Nik.”

“God!
I need you too, baby.” He cupped my face, seeming to memorize every inch of it, but I wondered if he was really seeing me. “So beautiful.” His lips brushed along my jaw, his wicked tongue skimming down my neck and sucking at the pulse that was frantically beating at the base.

He took his time with me.
Stripped me carefully of my tee shirt and boy shorts. He licked every inch of my tattoo on my hip, nibbling on the demon’s wings that surrounded the black heart with all the guys’ names inside of it in red. “Sexy as hell.” He growled before turning me over so that he could pay attention to the tattoo that took up most of my back. The dark wings of a demon, portraying me as one and the Gothic style writing below that said I was ‘Property of Demon’s Wings’ written in Goth.

I felt his dick nudge
me, skimming along the crack of my ass and I spread my legs without hesitating. “You aren’t ready for me to do that, baby. That virgin ass has to be tamed slowly. Especially when I’m this hard…Never been this hard before, baby. Never! All for you…” He nipped my shoulder. I cried out from the pure pleasure the small pain caused deep between my legs.

When he turned me onto my back and attacked my lips once more, seeming lost in the taste of me. He cupped my small breast
s in his big hands, causing me to blush. He was use to bigger boobs than mine. Nik was a breast man and I knew that mine had never inspired him before. But he seemed to love them.

His mouth left mine and swallowed one almost whole as he sucked my nipple into his hot mouth. I cried out, loving the pulling sensation of his suckling me. His fingers tugged at my other nipple, not daring to leave it out of his ministrations. After a few minutes he turned his mouth to my other breast while his fingers trailed lower, skimming across my belly button ring and lower.

When he reached my sex he lifted his head and watched as his fingers parted my lips. A tortured groan escaped his mouth. “So wet for me.” He seemed fascinated by the curls around my pussy. I keep it waxed except for what people call a landing strip along my outer lips. From the way he was gazing so intently at the auburn curls I figured that he liked it. “Do you taste as good as you smell, baby?”

Before I could answer he moved and put his mouth over my clit. I screamed as he sucked that distended ball of nerves into his sinfully hot mouth.
My back arched off the bed as he sucked and sucked until I couldn’t hold myself together anymore and came against his mouth. My release flooded my entrance and he made a whimpering sound as he lapped up every last drop of it.

When he raised his head his face glistened with my arousal. Nik didn’t bother to wipe it away as he returned to kissing me. The taste of m
e on his tongue was embarrassing at first, but then I got a full taste of it and moaned at how exotic the flavor was.