Authors: Cathy Kelly
Stewart standing close to her. He was talking to Fidelma,
making her giggle. But Evie still felt utterly conscious of his every movement. She wanted to watch him, to see his
head thrown back laughing at something silly Fidelma had
said, to see the lines around his glittering eyes when he
smiled. It was exhilarating just being close to him but she
was too excited to work out why or worry about it.
Enjoying the moment was the most important thing; Evie
couldn’t think of anything else. It was dizzying and scary
all at the same time.
I think we need a drink in the bar so you can relax
before facing the wedding party and put on your lipstick in
privacy,’ he was saying to Fidelma.
Wonderful,’ breathed Fidelma, who, to the best of
Evie’s knowledge, rarely drank and never wore any cosmetics
apart from a dusting of the baby pink Max Factor
powder she’d had for decades.
Max steered them into the bar which was a wedding
free zone because the champagne frenzy was in another
part of the hotel.
Settling Fidelma comfortably in a deep chair in front of
a massive stone fireplace you could roast a boar in, Max sat
down beside her and pulled his chair marginally closer to
the one Evie had chosen. After the chill of the day, the fire warmed their bones beautifully.
Evie instinctively stretched out her legs in their unaccustomed gossamer-thin seven deniers to warm them, before
she suddenly realised she was actually displaying her
horrible calves instead of keeping them hidden as per
usual. Whipping them back under her chair, she peered up
at Max to see if he’d noticed.
He didn’t seem to have done. He was asking Fidelma
what she wanted to drink.
‘A Harvey Wallbanger,’ she said with enthusiasm.
Evie’s eyebrows shot up in alarm.
‘No,’ Fidelma added thoughtfully, changing her mind. ‘A
Long Island Iced Tea. Or maybe a Singapore Sling …’
Fidelma,’ interrupted Evie, hoping to intervene before
the other woman ran out of decent cocktails and got to the Sex on the Beach variety, ‘don’t forget you’re on … er … painkillers,’ she emphasised.
‘A Banana Daiquiri!’ announced Fidelma happily. ‘I had
one of those the night I nearly got engaged.’
Max caught Evie’s eye and they both grinned.
‘Perhaps a restorative brandy or a glass of white wine,’
he suggested. ‘Because,’ he murmured for Evie’s ears alone,
‘I’m not asking the barman for a Vestal Virgin or a Long
Sloe Comfortable Screw …”
She had to stuff a sleeve into her mouth to stop herself
collapsing into laughter and then felt her heart thud at the
way Max looked so very pleased with himself for making
her laugh.
They sipped chilled white wine and Evie watched in
astonishment as Max gently drew Fidelma out of herself,
getting her to talk about the risque cocktails she and her
pals had drunk as dizzy teenage girls.
‘Movie stars drank cocktails and champagne then,’
Fidelma said, misty-eyed as her mind travelled back nearly
fifty years. ‘We wanted to be just like them. I wanted to be
Katharine Hepburn and my best friend wanted to be Jane Russell. Not that she had the … you know, embonpoint,’
she added discreetly with a glance at her own considerable
bosom.
After Fidelma’s reminiscences of watching The African
Queen in a tiny fleapit in Limerick with a young man who
was too scared of her father’s prowess with a shotgun to
hold her hand, she playfully asked Max who his heroes
were.
‘I wanted to be Sean Connery,’ he said ruefully, sitting
back in his chair. ‘My father took me to see Thunderball when I was ten or eleven and I had never seen anything like it in my life. I wanted to be a spy, to be supercool,
when in reality I was this skinny beanpole of a kid who
couldn’t walk two steps without tripping over my feet!’
Evie laughed, not able to imagine this suave man ever
being a grubby ten year old.
‘What about you, Evie?’
She remembered being in love with Harrison Ford in Star Wars and longing to be Carrie Fisher as Princess Leia, ever if it did mean having to wear her hair in those
ridiculous ear-muff plaits. And she’d never forget herself
and Olivia admiring Goldie Hawn’s picture in one of her
mother’s glossy magazines. At least Olivia had had rippling
blonde hair and some hope of looking kookily sexy like
Goldie, when with her mousy rat’s tails, Evie hadn’t a hope
in hell.
‘Go on, tell us. Or are you embarrassed to admit to
being a sweet eleven year old dreaming about wearing
Olivia Newton-John’s gear and snogging John Travolta.’
It was Evie’s turn to laugh. She’d been seventeen when Grease came out, not eleven.
‘You are a rogue, Max,’ she admonished, waggling a
finger at him. ‘As if I look thirty! What’s your game?’
He pretended to look shocked. ‘You mean you’re
younger than thirty? Forgive me.’
This time she slapped his knee, an instinctively familiar
gesture.
I’m older than thirty, you lunatic. As if you didn’t know.’
In reply, he gave her a heavy-lidded look that was meant
for her alone. A dark look that sent a bolt of excited
lightning through her belly. Terrified in case she went pink
again, Evie took a giant slug of her wine.
‘I do believe he’s flirting with you, Evie,’ twittered
Fidelma, who had drained her glass and was now looking
happily tipsy.
‘I’m flirting with both of you,’ Max replied, giving Evie
another intense look.
Arch looks were not Evie’s thing. She’d long realised
that a snub nose and rosy cheeks meant her chances of
looking wryly amused and sophisticated at the same time
were nil. But today, she thought, she’d managed it.
‘You look very fierce when you do that,’ Max remarked.
‘Do I?’ she asked, astonished. ‘I didn’t mean to. I was
trying to look …’ She paused. She couldn’t very well say
she was trying to look like a soignee heroine who was
trying to slap down an eager suitor. ‘… tougher, I was
trying to look a bit tougher, more autocratic,’ she said,
suddenly overwhelmed with the desire to be brutally
honest. ‘Not a pushover.’
Max laid one big hand softly on her arm. ‘You’re no
pushover, Evie Fraser,’ he said, his voice truthful. ‘But
you’re not a hard-edged, autocratic woman either. Believe
me, I’ve had more experience of women like that than I
care to remember. You’re warmhearted, funny and gentle.
That’s why I’m sitting here with you.’
Evie almost couldn’t breathe, her heart swelled so with
his compliments.
‘Oh, I almost forgot,’ Max added, wolf’s teeth showing.
‘You’re one hell of an attractive woman too.’
The Jade Princess, Davina or any one of Evie’s other
paper heroines would have said something clever or sexy
in return, something guaranteed to knock Max for six and
prompt him to produce red roses, champagne and an item
of jewellery that came with its own security guard.
Evie simply beamed at him. For the first time that day,
she felt really, truly happy.
‘Was it Olivia Whatsit-John you liked?’ demanded
Fidelma, who was trying to attract the barman’s attention
by waggling her empty glass meaningfully in his
direction.
Max took pity on her and ordered another round of
white wine. ‘But we’d better go up to the party soon,’ he
warned, ‘or the bride and groom will murder us.’
Evie momentarily wondered whether he was a guest of
he:- father’s or Vida’s but didn’t want to break the mood by
asking. She was sick of those ‘I’m his auntie’s secondcousin-twice-removed’
conversations you regularly had at
weddings where everyone got headaches trying to place
everyone else in the complicated family tree. Her father
had a wide circle of friends and Max could be anyone.
She’d find out later. This spell was too magical to be
broken with formalities.
‘I was never mad about Olivia Newton-John,’ she
answered. ‘Although I’d have killed for a figure like hers. I
still would,’ she added as an afterthought, one hand patting
her waist.
‘What do you mean?’ Max said, brow furrowed as he
looked at her.
The heat of the fire had given her pale face a rosy flush
and had made the previously stiff curls drop into more
natural waves around her face. With her huge hazel eyes
animated as she talked, Evie’s little face was as pretty as it
had ever been.
‘Well,’ she said, searching for the right way to explain it.
‘Olivia’s a real model girl, isn’t she? Gorgeous.’
‘And you’re not, is that it?’ he asked, still perplexed.
His expression said he genuinely couldn’t imagine Evie’s
no”, being happy with the way she looked. As if it was
ludicrous that she had a problem with herself. After a
lifetime of feeling not-quite-right, Evie felt her world shift
on its axis. What if she didn’t have anything to feel anxious
about, what if she was really gorgeous and she’d just been
locked in a cycle of hating herself all her life? What if it
was OK to be Evie Eraser, petite, curvy Twix bar fanatic
instead of a lanky celery fiend?
‘Women fascinate me,’ Max remarked, ‘but I’d hate to
be one. There’s so much to live up to. Men might want to be the top Grand Prix driver, yet they don’t want to look like him.’
‘I don’t want to look like someone else,’ protested Evie.
Well, she did actually. But she couldn’t reveal that, no
matter how bizarrely open she was being with this complete
stranger. ‘It’s wanting to be looking you know …’
‘Thinner?’ supplied Max with a wry look.
‘What’s wrong with that?’ said Evie hotly, hating to feel
that her entire personality had been reduced down to her
desire to be thin.
‘Nothing,’ he replied softly. ‘Except that you don’t need
to be thinner. You’re wonderful the way you are. I saw you
hiding your legs earlier. You don’t need to bother, believe
me.’
His eyes swept admiringly over her body, his practised
gaze making Evie feel as if he could expertly predict her
bra size and judge her waist span to within a centimetre.
‘We’d better go up,’ interrupted Fidelma mournfully.
‘Andrew wouldn’t like it if we spend the whole afternoon
here, even though I’m having such a ripping time.’
‘You’re right.’ Evie gathered her reeling senses. It was
half-three in the afternoon and she was feeling as headily
drunk as if it was half-three a.m. ‘They must have finished
taking the wedding photos by now,’ she added, ‘and we
don’t want to be late for the meal.’
‘I’m ravenous,’ Fidelma said. ‘I could kill for some soup.’
‘We’ll have to get something tasty for you to eat, my
dear,’ Max said, helping her to her feet. ‘Otherwise all
those wonderful cocktails I’m going to buy you later will
go straight to your head!’
Fidelma’s delighted shriek of laughter could be heard
echoing all round the room.
Evie began to think about food too. It was a long time
since breakfast and since she was already thin and gorgeous,
she could eat what she wanted.
The three of them walked towards the ballroom slowly.
You’re very kind to Fidelma,’ Evie whispered. ‘I really
appreciate it. You must have a raft of female relatives who
adore you. I bet you’re the apple of your mother’s eye,’ she
added jokingly, thinking that she’d never met a man less
like a mummy’s boy.
Well, my mother isn’t the sort of woman who requires
looking after,’ he remarked fondly. ‘She’s very independent.
After losing two husbands, you’ve got to be.’
Evie felt a flicker of suspicion in her gut. A premonition.
Her father had told her something about Vida’s son, a
television producer. He’d been asked to the wedding but
had plans to be in Australia at that time and hadn’t been
able to promise his disappointed mother anything.
.Max couldn’t be … No, he wasn’t…
They had reached the ballroom and he pushed the
double doors open effortlessly.
Max, you made it! I’m so glad.’ Vida’s serene face was
wreathed in smiles as she ran gracefully across the room
and threw her arms out to embrace Max. He enveloped
her in a bear hug, careful not to mess up the sleek
honey-blonde hair, before holding her at arm’s length and
admiring the elegant wedding outfit.
‘Mother, you look beautiful,’ he said affectionately. ‘As
always.’
Evie felt her heart sink to the bottom of her stomach
like a concrete block. Max was Vida’s son. Who knew what
he was really doing when he was chatting Evie up. Probably
trying to figure out how much trouble she’d be to his
beloved mummy who’d undoubtedly primed him on what
to do.
Why else would someone like him be interested in her?
Why else indeed. He was a sickeningly attractive man,
almost movie star material. Why would someone like him
bother even talking to her without an ulterior motive? And
as for all the bullshit about her being gorgeous and thin
enough without needing to worry … With a mother who