Authors: Cathy Kelly
His face creased into a smile. ‘Brilliant! How about
moving into the bedroom, then, before I fall off this thing.’
‘You mean, you have a bedroom too?’ she asked in mock
astonishment, looking around the airy living room. ‘I
thought this was it?’
In retaliation, he burrowed his fingers into her ribs,
tickling her mercilessly until she pushed him off the
couch.
‘Brat:,’ he said, getting up off the floor. ‘For that, I’m
going to make you sleep on the wet patch.’
‘What wet patch?’ demanded Cara, swinging her feet to
the floor.
The wet patch we’ll have created in a few minutes,’ he
replied, bending down and taking her nipple in his mouth.
When Cara opened her eyes, she felt momentarily disorientated.
The room was dark but the streetlight that shone
through the thin curtains in her bedroom wasn’t on. The
darkness was suffocating and she panicked, sitting up in
the bed in terror. Her breathing got faster, she was
panicking.
A hand slid out of the crumpled duvet and took hold of
her arm.
‘It’s all right, Cara. You’re with me.’
Ewan. She was in bed with Ewan after a glorious,
glorious evening. Relief washed over her and she burrowed
under the covers, aware of how cold it was outside the bed.
Ewan’s naked body was warm and he held her close, still
half-asleep but wanting to curl his body around hers.
Spooned together in the warmth, Cara closed her eyes and
dozed.
She was tired and she should probably go home soon.
After all, they both had work in the morning. She had to
be in early. She wondered what time it was and how
difficult it would be to get a taxi back to the flat. It had to be after one in the morning anyway.
Then, as her ears adapted to the sounds around her, she
became aware that the noises outside Ewan’s flat weren’t
middle of the night noises. They were early-morning
noises: the hum of heavy traffic, the sound of people
walking up and down the street outside. She sat up again
and looked at Ewan’s side of the bed where a small Mickey
Mouse alarm clock sat. Mickey’s big hand was at eleven
and his little hand was nearly at eight. Which meant five to eight and very, very late for work.
‘Ewan!’ she said. ‘We’ve overslept.’
‘Don’t care,’ he replied, stretching luxuriously and pulling
her back down into the bed. His lips fastened on hers,
his hands slid down her body to see if she was as aroused
as he was.
Cara surrendered to his caresses in an instant. Who cared
if they were fifteen minutes late in to work? she thought,
wrapping herself around Ewan’s warm, naked body.
Twenty-five minutes later, she was standing in Ewan’s
shower, jets of powerful water streaming all over her. What
a shower! It even had a massage function. The one in her
flat barely had a shower function and you needed to spend
ten minutes under its limp drip to rinse the conditioner off
your hair.
‘Need any help?’ inquired Ewan silkily, sticking his head
around the curtain and giving her his best lascivious grin.
His face was covered with shaving foam and he was
brandishing a sponge.
‘We’ll never get to work if you get in here with me,’
Cara said, flicking water at him.
‘Spoilsport.’
He retreated and Cara turned her face up to the
powerful stream of water and let it wash over her. It was
hard not to compare this morning with the last morning
she’d woken up with a man in bed beside her.
Although comparing Eric and Ewan was ludicrous. Their
names both started with E, she giggled to herself, but that
was where the similarity ended. Eric was a huge, alcohol
induced mistake but Ewan … he was something different.
Something special.
Shed loved snuggling up beside him in bed; loved
talking to him softly when they’d finished making love.
She adored the way they fitted together so perfectly, the
way her frame fitted exactly into the curve of his body, the
way his arms held her tightly while he talked nonsense into
her ear.
And, more importantly, she loved the way he understood her. He’d been so right about her immediate instinct being to run away after they’d made love. But wrong that it
would happen with him. For the first time in years, Cara
didn’t want to run away from a man.
‘You’ll wash yourself down the plughole if you don’t
come out soon,’ he yelled from outside the shower. ‘I’ve
made coffee for us.’
What to wear was the next problem. For her meeting
with Bernard, Cara knew she couldn’t turn up wearing her
ratty jeans but she didn’t have time to go home and
change.
‘Wear one of my shirts and I have a pair of black denims
that are pretty respectable,’ Ewan offered, as he pulled on
a white T-shirt over grey casual trousers. ‘You could try
them.’
Dressed in a crisp black cotton shirt that was way too
big for her and a pair of beautifully ironed jeans that were
very snug, her damp curls tied back, Cara looked smart.
Ewan sprayed her with his Eternity for Men, kissed her on
the nose, then stood back to admire her.
‘Beautiful. And sexy. In fact, we’ll have to get out of here
quickly or I’ll want to jump on you again.’
‘Don’t be daft,’ Cara said. ‘Not until we’ve had breakfast
at least,’ she amended.
It took them five minutes to swallow two slices of toast
each and gulp the remains of their coffee down before
hurrying out the door.
With Ewan’s car at the train station, they got a bus to
pick it up then drove through endless traffic to the
office.
‘Maybe we should keep our relationship to ourselves,’
Cara said delicately as they sat in a line of cars with five
hundred yards to go before they reached Yoshi Advertising.
‘What do you mean?’ asked Ewan, his hand comfortably
resting on her thigh, fingers idly sliding up and down the
black cotton.
‘Well …’ she paused ‘… just not talk about it until …
well … until we know each other better or …’ She was
really floundering now. ‘Until we’ve been together for
longer.’
Ewan didn’t look pleased at the idea.
‘You mean, hide that we’re going out?’ he demanded.
‘Not hide, just be discreet. Bernard might not like it,’
Cara added.
‘Fuck Bernard!’ Ewan replied venomously. ‘He doesn’t
run our lives.’
‘He’s certainly trying to ruin mine,’ Cara said gloomily.
‘He makes my life hell whenever he can.’
‘He will if you let him,’ Ewan said succinctly.
‘Don’t be cross,’ she begged him. ‘I’d just prefer us to
keep our relationship to ourselves for a while, not let it
become the biggest bit of office gossip since Bernard’s
secretary was caught in the men’s toilet with a client.
Can’t you understand that?’
She couldn’t bear to be the centre of attention, with
people giving her knowing glances, the way they had all
those years ago. Keeping her private life just that was too
much of a habit to be abandoned now.
With shameless disregard for the laws of motoring,
Ewan leaned over and kissed her firmly on the lips. ‘I
understand. I don’t want to keep it a secret too long,
though, Cara. I want to shout it from the rooftops. I want
to be able to take you out to lunch every day and go for
walks with you and …’ he stopped and grinned ‘… drag
you into the men’s toilets myself!’
‘And get us both fired?’ she laughed, but felt bizarrely
nervous in case anyone from Yoshi saw them together in
the car. It would be just her luck for Bernard to be driving
along in his Jag and spot them kissing. She could imagine
what he’d say: ‘No relationships between staff— one of you
will have to go,’ or something to that effect, and Cara
would be out on her ear, jobless and referenceless. She
couldn’t risk that. ‘I’ll hop out here in case anybody sees
us. I’ll phone you later, OK?’
‘And pretend to be my aunt in case anybody else
answers,’ he said drily.
‘I won’t be your aunt tonight,’ Cara said huskily, a
promising look in her dark eyes.
She clambered out into the heavy traffic, eyes darting
around looking for Bernard’s distinctive maroon Jag. He
hadn’t: been able to get the vanity plates he wanted:
BR 1.
Zoe reckoned he should have got DCKHD - abbreviation
for dickhead. But the car was nowhere in sight.
Cara marched along the road and swung into the lane by
the office, hoping nobody would notice her new clothes or
the gleam in her eyes. She couldn’t wait to tell Zoe.
because they were nursing horrible hangovers. And Olivia
and Stephen were barely speaking at all.
Rosie was sick of the lot of them. She fidgeted in her
pew at the front of the church, hands jammed in the
pockets of her pony skin jacket. She could feel the new
packet of Marlboros in her right pocket, still encased in
their shiny paper. For her grandfather’s wedding, she’d
splashed out and bought twenty instead of ten and now
they were just screeching to be smoked.
Well, she reasoned, after driving down in the car with
her aunt and mother, both of whom were simmering on
about Gas Mark 7, she reckoned it was going to be a long,
long day and she’d be glad of the comfort of a fag. She
wanted one now, in fact. But you couldn’t leave the church
while you were waiting for the bride, could you? Only if
you were sitting down the back and could sneak back in
unnoticed after she’d arrived. Rosie wished heartily she
was sitting down the back and not beside her silent and
bad-tempered extended family.
looking at the two elderly ladies sitting beside her, both
dressed in their Sunday best.
Grandpops looked great, she thought, pleased for him.
In a smart grey suit with a cream rose in his buttonhole,
he looked elegant and distinguished. Definitely not like a
man in his late-sixties. Standing talking to his best man
at the altar, he kept turning around and giving her
encouraging winks, his kind eyes twinkling at her. She
winked back.
Rosie sneaked a look at her watch under the guise of
stretching out and flexing her wrists. Her mother would
kill her if she saw Rosie openly looking at the time.
Ten past two. Vida was ten minutes late. Still, you were
allowed to be late to your own wedding. Rosie decided
she’d be at least half an hour late if it was her wedding. Not
that she had any plans to get married. But if she did, she’d
rather enjoy making them all wait for her so she could
sweep up the aisle fashionably late, blowing kisses to
ex-boyfriends and making them wish they were the lucky
bloke at the altar.
Bored, she admired her chrome-coloured nail varnish for
about the hundredth time. It was seriously Space Age and
she loved it. Cara had given it to her before they’d started
out that morning.
Rosie couldn’t see why her mother had got in such a tizz
over Rosie keeping them waiting an extra five minutes
while she painted her nails with it. They were leaving way
too early anyway.
Mind you, any time would have been too early to
travel with her mother and Cara. The atmosphere in the
car had been awful, so Rosie had plugged herself into
her personal stereo and ignored them pointedly ignoring
each other.
Her mother had addressed one sentence to her aunt.
Namely: ‘I hope Vida isn’t wearing white.’ To which Cara
had replied: ‘Well, you’re wearing it to your wedding,
aren’t you?’
After that, Rosie had given up all hope of reconciliation
and had buried herself in an old Ella Fitzgerald tape that had belonged to her father.
She was keeping out of it.
Why couldn’t her mother see that Cara didn’t want a
fight but wanted to make friends? And why couldn’t Cara
see that her mother hated being in the wrong, hated being
criticised and had no idea how to apologise without feeling she’d let herself down in some way? God, Rosie just wished the pair of them would grow up.
Evie couldn’t help admiring the flowers. In a wicked
thought she’d immediately regretted, she’d half-hoped the
Ballymoreen church would be done up like a bordello with
a riot of mismatching bright blooms vying with each other
for supremacy, maybe with some garish ribbons thrown in
for good measure. It would have been proof that Vida
Andersen wasn’t the queen of taste she pretended to be, a
Martha Stewart clone.
But there wasn’t a clashing crimson, lilac, delphinium
blue and daffodil arrangement in sight. Instead, the mellow
stone of the old church was decorated with velvety roses in
the palest ivory, tied up with fragile grey ribbons. Very
elegant. Evie had to admit it looked lovely.
She caught her father winking at Rosie. Her daughter,
who hadn’t stopped fidgeting since they’d sat down,
winked broadly back. Evie leaned forward and shot a
glare along the pew in her direction but Rosie was