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I was surprised even further when she dropped to her knees in front of me and caressed my thighs with the palms of her hands before she reached for my belt buckle and released it.

“You know, I may still be new at this whole emotions thing. I am now better able to understand and recognize things in others. I have you to thank for that, Andris. You have done something to me that has flipped a switch that was long hidden within me.”

She undid the button of my pants and I lifted my hips, allowing her to remove them, and leaving me exposed in my boxer briefs.

“You saved me. You brought me out from a dormant and vacant life, Andris. You have woken up my soul. I feel so many different things with you. Everyone always wanted to know what I was feeling or what I saw. I see a fear in you right now. I don’t know what it is, and you don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to. Just let me help you get past it, like you helped me.”

With tentative fingers she pulled down the waistband of my boxer briefs, completely exposing my ridged cock to her. Nudging my knees apart, she steeled between my legs, tracing her delicate fingers across my thighs. I shivered with delight. Nearly bounced on the spot with anticipation. Sweat formed on my brows and my balls ached to the point I could barely stand it.

Gripping me in her hand, I grew even harder, and when her head descended down and she took the tip of my cock into her mouth, I nearly died. The warm, moist confines of her mouth nearly had me coming as she swirled the tip of her tongue around the tip. My head rested back on the sofa as she took me deeper with expertly practiced movements. She went slowly, painfully so.

“Oh fuck, Nicola.”

“Mmmm.” She moaned against my dick and the vibrations she sent through me nearly made me come undone. She continued in an unrelenting rhythm until I was forced to stop her, or explode in her mouth.

“I wasn’t finished,” she protested as she wiped at the corner of her mouth. Damn, she was fucking perfect. She didn’t ask any questions nor seek any answers when I began to behave differently, she just took the reins and made me forget my torment.

“Well, you have had your dessert, now I want mine.”

“Well, who am I to deprive you of that?” She teased before rising from the floor. Unhooking the clasps of her garter, she seductively slid her panties down the smooth skin of her thighs, before allowing them to pool at her feet. She teased me in delightful ways. Knew exactly how to drive me to the brink of insanity, to where there was no room for my father’s ghostly torment, only thoughts of burying myself inside of her remained.

Taking her hand, I gently pulled her down onto the couch and guided her to where she was lying on her back facing me. I placed my hands on her knees, guiding her legs apart before coming to settle between them. Through the flames that flickered around the room, I could see her desire. I was exposed to the glistening evidence of her desire as I traced a single finger through her wet core.

“That feels amazing,” she breathed as her back gently arched off the back of the couch. Not wanting to waste any more time or allow my father’s voice to gain access to my thoughts, I concentrated solely on her as I spread open her lips and traced my tongue around her sensitive clit. Her body jerked with the first touch and continued to make small acknowledgements of my presence as I began to pick up the pace until I was at a rhythm that had her writhing beneath me in only a matter of moments. I drew my power from her. The pleasure that she was experiencing from my tongue drove me further. I relished in her taste, claiming her as mine with my tongue before I would claim her as mine with my body.

The look on her face was enough to satisfy me. Her eyes were closed and her perfect mouth hung open slightly. I focused on her breath, synchronizing swipes of my tongue to match her pants, creating a pleasure within her as well as myself like neither of us has ever known. I gripped her thighs more firmly when she tried to close them, and when her hands fisted in my hair, the prickly sting at my scalp was a welcoming feeling.

“Andris…” she moaned, my name sounding erotic coming from her lips. Knowing that her thoughts were filled with me drove me to the brink of madness. So many times I had to witness her sessions with Link. So many times I had to experience the chemistry and heat between them, and so many times it left me feeling inadequate…second hand.

But to have her before me, writhing and on the brink of climax gave me all the power and courage I needed. She made me feel like I was enough. She gave me the ability to see past my own fears and to overcome any obstacle I faced.

“Andris, please…” she begged.

I inserted a fingertip, gesturing in a “come hither” motion as I began to stroke the sweet spot inside of her that made her even wetter. I felt her thighs tremble and her breathing begin to hitch.

“
That’s it, Nicola. Feel it. Feel me.”

“I…oh God…I’m going to cum.”

And she did. Gloriously. Fully. Like her body had just been granted pure and unadulterated ecstasy. Pressure having given way to release.

When she opened her eyes, they were clouded as if she had just had an out of body experience. I could still taste her on my tongue and leaned in so that she could taste herself on me.

“You are so beautiful when you cum.” I said between kisses and I lapped at her tongue and gently bit on her bottom lip. She reached to rid me of my boxers and I stopped her.

“Not here.”

I picked her up bridal style, the smooth creaminess of the backs of her thighs resting on my forearms and her arms snaked around my neck, pressing her breasts towards my face. As I made my way down the hall to my bedroom, I leaned down and captured one already hardened nipple and playfully teased it to where it puckered even more.

Gently, I placed her down on the bed before joining her and laying my body on top of her to absorb the warmth. She looked around as if searching for something.

“What are you looking for?”

“There aren’t any restraints in here.”

“No, there isn’t.”

“No blindfolds?”

“Nope.”

“Any kinky sex toys?” She slightly giggled.

“No,” I asserted with seriousness even though she was being playful. Her amusement was cute, but right now my mission was to prove to her that there was just me and her. No toys, restraints, or barriers to come between us.

“None of that here, Nicola. Tonight it is about you and me. It is about seeing your eyes when I make you cum. To watch the glistening flecks of your irises as you fall over the edge. To see the pleasure written on your face as I bury myself deeper and deeper inside of you. I want skin on skin. Breath to breath. I want you to touch me. See me, and only me. I want your full attention, your trust. Mostly I want you to know that you belong to me. With me.”

“Okay. You know, doctor, a girl could get used to this kind of flattery. I like it when you get all bossy and tell me what to do.”

“Get used to it. Because I plan on making you cum so hard, you will forget who you are.”

“Bring on the amnesia, doc.”

I reached over to the bedside drawer and produced a foil packet. She once again reached between us and this time, I allowed her to slide my boxers down and expose myself to her. For a brief moment I stilled, poising the condom over the head of my dick as fear once again threatened to overwhelm me. This will be the first time in my life to make love to a woman no holds barred, literally. There were no holds, no restraints. Only the woman that I was falling deeper and deeper for every day. She was my only chance to break free. I had forgotten what it was like to feel
okay
before her, but I also knew she could be my downfall.

As if sensing my hesitation, she took the condom from me and rolled it onto my cock, her fingers massaging my shaft on the way down. I shook away the darkness, no longer content with living among the grey of my shitty life and instead embraced her light instead of fighting it.

I lined myself up to her entrance and in one slow push, I was inside of her and it felt like breathing for the first time. It felt like I had been reborn from the hollow and sorry man I had become and was now birthed into someone who wants to be better than that.

“Oh God,” she breathed. My arms trembled as I poised myself over her, beginning an easy rhythm and enjoying the feel of her pussy as it clamped around me, pulling me deeper inside of her, like she was greedy for our bodies to connect.

“You feel even better than I remembered,” I admitted in a whisper as I pressed my lips to the spot on her neck that flirted with her jawline. She tilted her head to the side, allowing better access as her hands roamed my skin, reaching and searching for something that I’m sure she herself wasn’t even aware of.

“Open your eyes,” I commanded and was met with desire, want, and need all at the same time when she complied. I cupped her face with my hands, forcing her to keep her eyes on me as I continued to rock in and out of her.

It was like heaven to finally be with a woman without any restraints or barriers between us, but not just any woman. It was a privilege to be with her. She was something I never envisioned happening to me, but everything I ever wanted.

Our lips met as we made love to each other with our bodies and our mouths. It was a high like no other that I had ever experienced, and I never wanted to come back down.

When we finally both climaxed in a rush of hot breaths and sweaty skin, it was together. Both finding our release in each other. Two broken souls made complete by being with one another.

ChapteMY NIGHT WITH ANDRIS was beyond anything that I could ever imagine. Never having felt or truly experienced love, it was something that I now craved more than my next breath. I yielded to the comfort of his arms and I counted each and every lazy breath he made while he slept beside me.

Light filtered in through the window and cast shadows on the walls. It was almost peaceful and serene if it weren’t for the looming sense of dread I felt hanging on my shoulders. I felt a cataclysmic unbalance as I sat and relished about my night with Andris, mixed with sad and painful thoughts of how our relationship was going to survive what we were aiming for.

I felt Andris hold back a little last night before he finally let go of whatever demons were plaguing him when we finally made love. I’ve never made love with a man before. I was built to fuck, built to not care about my sinful acts, but being with Andris was earth shattering, soul embracing.

“Someone is deep in thought,” he said in a sleepy, yet husky voice. His baritone radiated through me and made me tremble.

“How long have you been awake?” I asked as I stroked the skin of his forearms with the tip of my nails.

“Long enough to hear those wheels in your head turn faster than the huge ass wheels of my truck.”

I chuckled.

“Just reliving last night in my head.”

From the floor, a cell phone alarm sounded annoyingly loud into the silence of the room and Andris reached down to retrieve it.

“Fuck. I have three early patients this morning. But I’d much rather stay here with you all day.”

My heart swelled to the point of bursting. I still couldn’t believe how easily he could give me that warm and fuzzy feeling, even if it were only from his words.

“It’s okay. I need to get downtown to meet up with Lexie anyways. I haven’t talked to her in a few days and if I don’t make an appearance, she may send Big Joe out looking for me.”